Monday, May 19, 2008 @ 11:26 AM
Sunday, May 11, 2008 @ 12:47 PM
Shelter
Corrinne May
What's wrong, what's getting you down
Was it something I might have said?
You're walking around
with your head to the ground
and your eyes are watery red
I know you've been through tough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone
Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend
We share a bond
You and I we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone
Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend
It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll
Call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let my be your shelter my friend
yes, i don't just wanna be on the receiving end..i can be on the giving end, too
it's been a relatively good week...it seems that friday is the day i'd receive good news (: last friday i got a call from mum at work, telling me that i'm accepted into nus pharmacy. this fri, i also got a call from her at around the same timing. she told me that she couldn't be sure, but it seemed like i got a scholarship from NUS.
-.- talk about keeping me in suspense. it was like holding one big breath over squad dinner before i could head home to devour the letter with my very own eyes. so yeah, i'm a recipient of the nus sci award (((: it will cover the entire length of my undergraduate studies. but i dun think i'd get any allowance. still, i'm more than happy! help save my parents' $$$. hahaha.
i had a serious case of sugar high from BnJ's on thursday night. it never struck me that consuming too much sugary foods would lead to insomnia ): basically i had brief lapses into unconsciousness, but i think that's about all the sleep i'd gotten.the other times i experienced insomnia was when i took the stupid clarinase (it cleared my mind as well) tablet and when i drank vv strong tea at night. pls remind me to steer clear of these agents of insomnia. strangely, i was not at all grumpy on fri morning..
counting the days to the end of working stint...
awaiting freedom;
Saturday, May 03, 2008 @ 6:13 PM
Gravity
Sara Bareilles
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
it's been terrifyingly humid these days! i'm perspiring in sheets, not in beads. i feel like i've just walked into the oven. no, i think i've been living in one. i wish i could be transported to some faraway temperate country now. like FRANCE. heh.
in other news, i received the acceptance letter into NUS pharmacy! i thought i ought to be elated, over-the-moon, but surprisingly i'm not. i'm just...happy. relieved would be a better description. haven't heard news abt e fac of sci scholarship though. no news=bad news? hmmmm. happy for those who got what they want, too (: i wonder who else got into pharmacy as well? if you happen to know anyone who did, pls drop me a msg! i hope i won't be the stupidest pharm student in the cohort. HAHA. given my (lack of) memory space :/
Monday, April 21, 2008 @ 7:43 PM
hey!
guess what? i took half-day leave today because there was NOTHING for me to do! i spent the whole morning cooped up in the library, reading newspapers and books. basically, getting paid for doing nothing. not that i mind, really. but i felt quite bad for slacking outrightly (haha RIGHT) so i decided to go home! my paycheck this month is gonna be disappointing. taking more half-day leaves this week to go for the interviews. plus i missed two days of work last week! on the bright side i have extra income from tuition. so it's not too bad :p
oh yeah, i just received a msg from alicia that i have a bnj interview on 25th! hope it could take place after work. if not i've to take yet another half-day leave. saddd. so anyway, hope i'll get to join ali! and hope edmund gets in too. haha. thing is i don't know when i can leave KW..if by the time i join bnj edmund's gotta enlist then it's quite dumb. lol.
i think i should make it a habit to exercise every weekend. i got a bit of a shock when i read off e weighing scale ytd. i think i'm edging closer to the dreaded 50 range..not quite there, but approaching. be careful of what you wish for. these words of caution have been more apt! lol. i'm not exaggerating okay..my h&m jeans were still q loose-fitting when i tried it in hk..now it feels rather tight :/ goodness me.
this is a christian song by Corrinne May, i thought it's very meaningful even though i'm not a follower of Christ..
Beautiful Seed
I can fill the darkness with just one flash of light
Break the the silence with just one word
Warm the fire-started revolution
One that can save the world
On the steps of Washington sprinkled like confetti
Thousands of people sing "We shall overcome"
The preacher shouts: "Let freedom ring"
He gave his life for what he believed
Chorus
You can be a witness You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet
Hope for the future
Shout it, don't whisper dreams are what make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You're a beautiful seed
She's a pastor's daughter
She's only 16
But her heart and her belly are breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her
He want to pay for the doctor to wash it away
As she lays in the hospital
A Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger fragile and small "Unto us is born a Savior"
She looks at her baby and cries as she sings him a lullaby
(Chorus)
Every hope, every power lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We're all seeds in the maker's hand
Monday, April 14, 2008 @ 3:13 PM
thinking that the nondescript red swelling next to my right nostril is a pimple, i happily squeezed it, hoping that it will heal soon. then, i decided to reduce the redness by putting on raw egg white mask. by night time, i realised that the stubborn swelling persisted, and apply cold pressure to the tender area. still preoccupied by the slightly painful and massive "pimple", i pressed on the surrounding area.
what stupid mistakes i've made!!! just came back from the family doc and got to know that the pimple is instead an abscess.
"An abscess is a tender, easily pressed mass generally surrounded by a colored area from pink to deep red. The middle of an abscess is full of pus and debris.
Painful and warm to touch, abscesses can show up any place on your body. The most common sites are in your armpits (axillae), areas around your anus and vagina (Bartholin gland abscess), the base of your spine (pilonidal abscess), around a tooth (dental abscess), and in your groin. Inflammation around a hair follicle can also lead to the formation of an abscess, which is called a boil (furuncle).
Unlike other infections, antibiotics alone will not cure an abscess. In general an abscess must open and drain in order for it to improve. Sometimes draining occurs on its own, but generally it must be opened by a doctor in a procedure called incision and drainage.
Abscess Causes
Abscesses are caused by obstruction of oil (sebaceous) glands or sweat glands, inflammation of hair follicles, or from minor breaks and punctures of the skin. Germs get under the skin or into these glands, which causes an inflammatory response as your body's defenses try to kill these germs.
The middle of the abscess liquefies and contains dead cells, bacteria, and other debris. This area begins to grow, creating tension under the skin and further inflammation of the surrounding tissues. Pressure and inflammation cause the pain.
Abscess Treatment Self-Care at Home
If the abscess is small (less than 1 cm or less than a half-inch across), applying warm compresses to the area for about 30 minutes 4 times daily can help.
Do not attempt to drain the abscess by pressing on it. This can push the infected material into the deeper tissues.
Do not stick a needle or other sharp instrument into the abscess center because you may injure an underlying blood vessel or cause the infection to spread. "
omg. when i read those words of precaution i nearly died. couldn't help but laugh at my silly but genuine mistakes. i did EXACTLY what i was not supposed to do. but what's done cannot be undone. just pray and hope that the infection stops spreading and i don't need to go back to the doc. or least i won't have any permanent scars left from e incision and drainage. the thought of it makes me shudder. the only consolation is that i have 2 days mc! zzz don't even wanna step out of my house now, unless absolutely necessary.
Monday, April 07, 2008 @ 10:44 PM
Batch 36 with our signature hand signs!
Batch 38
Cute kaylen!!
heya!
there's so many things i wanna update on. first thing first: CT finals! thank goodness it was a bright and cheery Saturday morning at the HTA and that the rain came at an appropriate time. (after the finals, that is)
quite a few ppl from various batches turned up for the big event. together with the current unit, we formed a powerful cheering squad and really screamed our lungs out. hahaha. amanda m said our cheers were really solid (: oh yeah, during the pitch, literally everyone was blatantly hinting to wenxian to pick up that ball of twine that laid just outside the pitch. it made me wonder, would one be able to pick up external signals while in a game/match/competition? just imagine the immense stress on you to do whatever you need to do to win. you'd probably be blinded by your own peripheral vision. which brings me to another point-persistence does not necessarily bring results. sometimes nynp cadets are persistent to the point that they become quite stubborn and inflexible. something to do with the teaching method perhaps. oh well. it's really up to the unit to prove their worth.
anyway, we've got 2nd! which isn't bad at all, honestly. tkss (or issit tkgs oops) really deserved their gold. Their flagstaff was upright from all angles, their basha looked both impressive and functional at the same time, and their gadgets looked pretty good too. I think our saving grace was the spectacular jerry-can-holding gadget!! it's so amazing! it can be used to pour water from a fully-filled jerry can! really proud of their creations (:
oh yeah, mr han's son, kaylen is so cute!! he looked like an all-american kid in his GAP apparel. haha. typical boy cuz he love gadgets. when i showed him my camera he immediately took interest and got "bribed" over. HAHAHA.
after the finals, i went to jac's house to play with her Jack Russell, Rusty! it's the smallest dog/puppy i've ever seen! i could put her (i think it's female) on my palm! it's about as long as the width of an A4 size paper. it has got bad breath! haha. poor jac and her family has gotta endure her yelpings thru the night. rusty likes ppl A LOT and needs a lot of attention and cuddling. i think i'm a little intimidated by dogs which are too friendly and hyperactive. LOL. the irony. Rusty kept coming over to me even though i kept repeating, "Don't come here!" I think it just likes to play with human beings. heh. with the collaborative effort of jac's daddy and mummy, jac and i, rusty had a refreshing bath! hehe. it fell asleep several times while jac was drying it. it must have felt way too comfortable.
gonna watch the hk drama serial at 12 later! i'll be damn groggy in the morning for sure. KILL ME PLEASE.
Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 9:34 PM
so i'm back from from malaysia! i got increasingly pissed off with the stupid train cuz it was late for almost 2 hours, and when it pulled over at johor bahru, we had to shift all our belongings and ourselves to the other train because e original one was due for the other direction. in the end, it took us a total of 7.5 hours to get back to singapore, which is only 1 hour's flight away -.- greatttt.
well. been reflecting about stuff during this short getaway..i think i became quite impatient and selfish these days...you think? it's like i'd get rather irritated while waiting for queues and whatnots. and sometimes i'd just not care about others and do my own things. i think e np spirit of sharing and teamwork has worn off me. maybe it's because the working world has made me more wary and catious towards others. guess there's a lot for me to learn in this grown-up world..
i have so many dates ahead this week!! tuesday i'm probably going for 401 gathering (1st april!), mon/wed might have movie date w ever, thurs/fri having squad gathering, sat is nyct finals and sunday i'm going out w table partners. and there's alot of things i need/want to buy. i wanna go ikea!!! to buy some decors for my room (: anyone who wants to go w me??? heehee.
hope work would be more interesting tmr..think jesti has sth for me to do. sounds important. hmmm. but i wonder how important can admin get. hahaha.
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oh yeah, i forgot to add that i'm gonna pick up dance lessons! after talking about it for so long, it's time i get down to action. i'm so glad that sylvia is joining me (: now i need to find a class schedule that fits both of us. can't wait to do some exercise!!
awaiting freedom;
Batch 36 with our signature hand signs!
Cute kaylen!!