everyone's fairy tale

2008-05-19T11:26:00.001+08:00

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2008-05-11T12:47:00.004+08:00

Shelter
Corrinne May

What's wrong, what's getting you down
Was it something I might have said?
You're walking around
with your head to the ground
and your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through tough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

We share a bond
You and I we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll

Call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let my be your shelter my friend

yes, i don't just wanna be on the receiving end..i can be on the giving end, too

it's been a relatively good week...it seems that friday is the day i'd receive good news (: last friday i got a call from mum at work, telling me that i'm accepted into nus pharmacy. this fri, i also got a call from her at around the same timing. she told me that she couldn't be sure, but it seemed like i got a scholarship from NUS.
-.- talk about keeping me in suspense. it was like holding one big breath over squad dinner before i could head home to devour the letter with my very own eyes. so yeah, i'm a recipient of the nus sci award (((: it will cover the entire length of my undergraduate studies. but i dun think i'd get any allowance. still, i'm more than happy! help save my parents' $$$. hahaha.

i had a serious case of sugar high from BnJ's on thursday night. it never struck me that consuming too much sugary foods would lead to insomnia ): basically i had brief lapses into unconsciousness, but i think that's about all the sleep i'd gotten.the other times i experienced insomnia was when i took the stupid clarinase (it cleared my mind as well) tablet and when i drank vv strong tea at night. pls remind me to steer clear of these agents of insomnia. strangely, i was not at all grumpy on fri morning..

counting the days to the end of working stint...

awaiting freedom;

2008-05-03T18:13:00.003+08:00

Gravity
Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

it's been terrifyingly humid these days! i'm perspiring in sheets, not in beads. i feel like i've just walked into the oven. no, i think i've been living in one. i wish i could be transported to some faraway temperate country now. like FRANCE. heh.

in other news, i received the acceptance letter into NUS pharmacy! i thought i ought to be elated, over-the-moon, but surprisingly i'm not. i'm just...happy. relieved would be a better description. haven't heard news abt e fac of sci scholarship though. no news=bad news? hmmmm. happy for those who got what they want, too (: i wonder who else got into pharmacy as well? if you happen to know anyone who did, pls drop me a msg! i hope i won't be the stupidest pharm student in the cohort. HAHA. given my (lack of) memory space :/

2008-04-21T19:43:00.003+08:00

hey!

guess what? i took half-day leave today because there was NOTHING for me to do! i spent the whole morning cooped up in the library, reading newspapers and books. basically, getting paid for doing nothing. not that i mind, really. but i felt quite bad for slacking outrightly (haha RIGHT) so i decided to go home! my paycheck this month is gonna be disappointing. taking more half-day leaves this week to go for the interviews. plus i missed two days of work last week! on the bright side i have extra income from tuition. so it's not too bad :p

oh yeah, i just received a msg from alicia that i have a bnj interview on 25th! hope it could take place after work. if not i've to take yet another half-day leave. saddd. so anyway, hope i'll get to join ali! and hope edmund gets in too. haha. thing is i don't know when i can leave KW..if by the time i join bnj edmund's gotta enlist then it's quite dumb. lol.

i think i should make it a habit to exercise every weekend. i got a bit of a shock when i read off e weighing scale ytd. i think i'm edging closer to the dreaded 50 range..not quite there, but approaching. be careful of what you wish for. these words of caution have been more apt! lol. i'm not exaggerating okay..my h&m jeans were still q loose-fitting when i tried it in hk..now it feels rather tight :/ goodness me.

this is a christian song by Corrinne May, i thought it's very meaningful even though i'm not a follower of Christ..

Beautiful Seed

I can fill the darkness with just one flash of light
Break the the silence with just one word
Warm the fire-started revolution
One that can save the world

On the steps of Washington sprinkled like confetti
Thousands of people sing "We shall overcome"
The preacher shouts: "Let freedom ring"
He gave his life for what he believed

Chorus
You can be a witness You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet
Hope for the future
Shout it, don't whisper dreams are what make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You're a beautiful seed

She's a pastor's daughter
She's only 16
But her heart and her belly are breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her
He want to pay for the doctor to wash it away

As she lays in the hospital
A Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger fragile and small "Unto us is born a Savior"
She looks at her baby and cries as she sings him a lullaby

(Chorus)

Every hope, every power lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We're all seeds in the maker's hand

abscess invasion!

2008-04-14T15:13:00.003+08:00

thinking that the nondescript red swelling next to my right nostril is a pimple, i happily squeezed it, hoping that it will heal soon. then, i decided to reduce the redness by putting on raw egg white mask. by night time, i realised that the stubborn swelling persisted, and apply cold pressure to the tender area. still preoccupied by the slightly painful and massive "pimple", i pressed on the surrounding area.

what stupid mistakes i've made!!! just came back from the family doc and got to know that the pimple is instead an abscess.

"An abscess is a tender, easily pressed mass generally surrounded by a colored area from pink to deep red. The middle of an abscess is full of pus and debris.

Painful and warm to touch, abscesses can show up any place on your body. The most common sites are in your armpits (axillae), areas around your anus and vagina (Bartholin gland abscess), the base of your spine (pilonidal abscess), around a tooth (dental abscess), and in your groin. Inflammation around a hair follicle can also lead to the formation of an abscess, which is called a boil (furuncle).

Unlike other infections, antibiotics alone will not cure an abscess. In general an abscess must open and drain in order for it to improve. Sometimes draining occurs on its own, but generally it must be opened by a doctor in a procedure called incision and drainage.

Abscess Causes

Abscesses are caused by obstruction of oil (sebaceous) glands or sweat glands, inflammation of hair follicles, or from minor breaks and punctures of the skin. Germs get under the skin or into these glands, which causes an inflammatory response as your body's defenses try to kill these germs.

The middle of the abscess liquefies and contains dead cells, bacteria, and other debris. This area begins to grow, creating tension under the skin and further inflammation of the surrounding tissues. Pressure and inflammation cause the pain.

Abscess Treatment Self-Care at Home

If the abscess is small (less than 1 cm or less than a half-inch across), applying warm compresses to the area for about 30 minutes 4 times daily can help.

Do not attempt to drain the abscess by pressing on it. This can push the infected material into the deeper tissues.
Do not stick a needle or other sharp instrument into the abscess center because you may injure an underlying blood vessel or cause the infection to spread. "

omg. when i read those words of precaution i nearly died. couldn't help but laugh at my silly but genuine mistakes. i did EXACTLY what i was not supposed to do. but what's done cannot be undone. just pray and hope that the infection stops spreading and i don't need to go back to the doc. or least i won't have any permanent scars left from e incision and drainage. the thought of it makes me shudder. the only consolation is that i have 2 days mc! zzz don't even wanna step out of my house now, unless absolutely necessary.

2008-04-07T22:44:00.004+08:00

Batch 36 with our signature hand signs!

Batch 38

Cute kaylen!!

heya!

there's so many things i wanna update on. first thing first: CT finals! thank goodness it was a bright and cheery Saturday morning at the HTA and that the rain came at an appropriate time. (after the finals, that is)

quite a few ppl from various batches turned up for the big event. together with the current unit, we formed a powerful cheering squad and really screamed our lungs out. hahaha. amanda m said our cheers were really solid (: oh yeah, during the pitch, literally everyone was blatantly hinting to wenxian to pick up that ball of twine that laid just outside the pitch. it made me wonder, would one be able to pick up external signals while in a game/match/competition? just imagine the immense stress on you to do whatever you need to do to win. you'd probably be blinded by your own peripheral vision. which brings me to another point-persistence does not necessarily bring results. sometimes nynp cadets are persistent to the point that they become quite stubborn and inflexible. something to do with the teaching method perhaps. oh well. it's really up to the unit to prove their worth.

anyway, we've got 2nd! which isn't bad at all, honestly. tkss (or issit tkgs oops) really deserved their gold. Their flagstaff was upright from all angles, their basha looked both impressive and functional at the same time, and their gadgets looked pretty good too. I think our saving grace was the spectacular jerry-can-holding gadget!! it's so amazing! it can be used to pour water from a fully-filled jerry can! really proud of their creations (:

oh yeah, mr han's son, kaylen is so cute!! he looked like an all-american kid in his GAP apparel. haha. typical boy cuz he love gadgets. when i showed him my camera he immediately took interest and got "bribed" over. HAHAHA.

after the finals, i went to jac's house to play with her Jack Russell, Rusty! it's the smallest dog/puppy i've ever seen! i could put her (i think it's female) on my palm! it's about as long as the width of an A4 size paper. it has got bad breath! haha. poor jac and her family has gotta endure her yelpings thru the night. rusty likes ppl A LOT and needs a lot of attention and cuddling. i think i'm a little intimidated by dogs which are too friendly and hyperactive. LOL. the irony. Rusty kept coming over to me even though i kept repeating, "Don't come here!" I think it just likes to play with human beings. heh. with the collaborative effort of jac's daddy and mummy, jac and i, rusty had a refreshing bath! hehe. it fell asleep several times while jac was drying it. it must have felt way too comfortable.

gonna watch the hk drama serial at 12 later! i'll be damn groggy in the morning for sure. KILL ME PLEASE.

2008-03-30T21:34:00.004+08:00

so i'm back from from malaysia! i got increasingly pissed off with the stupid train cuz it was late for almost 2 hours, and when it pulled over at johor bahru, we had to shift all our belongings and ourselves to the other train because e original one was due for the other direction. in the end, it took us a total of 7.5 hours to get back to singapore, which is only 1 hour's flight away -.- greatttt.

well. been reflecting about stuff during this short getaway..i think i became quite impatient and selfish these days...you think? it's like i'd get rather irritated while waiting for queues and whatnots. and sometimes i'd just not care about others and do my own things. i think e np spirit of sharing and teamwork has worn off me. maybe it's because the working world has made me more wary and catious towards others. guess there's a lot for me to learn in this grown-up world..

i have so many dates ahead this week!! tuesday i'm probably going for 401 gathering (1st april!), mon/wed might have movie date w ever, thurs/fri having squad gathering, sat is nyct finals and sunday i'm going out w table partners. and there's alot of things i need/want to buy. i wanna go ikea!!! to buy some decors for my room (: anyone who wants to go w me??? heehee.

hope work would be more interesting tmr..think jesti has sth for me to do. sounds important. hmmm. but i wonder how important can admin get. hahaha.

/edited/

oh yeah, i forgot to add that i'm gonna pick up dance lessons! after talking about it for so long, it's time i get down to action. i'm so glad that sylvia is joining me (: now i need to find a class schedule that fits both of us. can't wait to do some exercise!!

my poor poor phone ):

2008-03-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

Dear beloved k770i,

I'm sorry to leave you alone on the bus/mrt/some other foreign place...

I'm sorry that you've been kidnapped by a greedy idiot who had decided to be mercenary and not return you back to me...

I'm sorry for your pitiful plight...for you might be sitting inside the display case, together with several other hopefuls who are waiting to be sold.

I hope that you will now belong to an owner who treats you better than i do.

No, I still have not gotten over you and will not get a new phone until I feel like doing so...

2008-03-15T21:20:00.008+08:00

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Psychology/Sociology

81%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

75%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

75%

HR/BusinessManagement

69%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

63%

Education/Counseling

56%

English/Journalism/Comm

50%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

44%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

38%

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38%

Visual&PerformingArts

38%

Religion/Theology

25%

Mathematics/Statistics

19%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

Hmmmm…I’ve concluded that open house had made my determination in studying pharmacy waver a wee bit. I’m tempted to study real estate and management!! This sucks, seriously.

2008-03-13T08:52:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA!!

For the record, i'm not in the BMT thing as was reported on The Straits Times on Saturday. I'd be the last person to sign up (: I think reporters can't be bothered to check the names. The last time Ever was on the papers, her surname was changed from lee to lau. Now they put my name down instead of sin yee's!and katrina's name become patrina. tsktsk.

In the office now...taking half-day leave to make a trip down to HC. then going off to meet zhang and zhi for dinner!!! yay. so happy (: i think they're giving a belated birthday treat. HAHAHA.

Sqms, please remember to buy the magazine asap!! if not don't have e coupon then no offer lo. I sound like a naggy old grandmama. haha.

2008-03-11T21:33:00.002+08:00

I don't quite know why I did this, but I did. Lol.

How much have you changed in three years?

How old were you?
Then: 15
Now: 18

Where did you go to school?
Then: Nanyang Girls'
Now: Officially a HCI graduate!

Who were your best friends?
Then: Squadmates
Now: Still squadmates, and some other friends

Where did you work?
Then: Full-time student
Now: You really want me to list them all??? LOL.

What did you dress like?
Then: I used to worship OP like every other ignorant teen (don't you dare to deny this!)
Now: I have eclectic taste in clothes; so much more into fashion now

Did you have a lot of friends?
Then: Sort of just kept to my sqms
Now: Loads more cuz I became more outgoing and friendly

Music you listened to?
Then: Mainly Mandopop
Now: Old School, Indie and Country!

Where did you live?
Then: Yishun
Now: Same old place

Who did you hate?
Then: Didn't think I hate anyone at all
Now: Nobody

What was your hair style?
Then: Ubiquitous NPCC haircut LOL.
Now: Chin-length approaching shoulders

Did you do sports?
Then: Yes!
Now: Been inactive since the longest time =P

Who was your regular-person crush?
Then: Cute-looking, sporty guys
Now: Roughly the same; add a bit more macho-ness. haha.

How many tattoos did you have?
Then: Zilch
Now: Zero and not intending to get any.

What was your favorite thing to do?
Then: Spend time with my friends
Now: There's so many things tt I like to do now (:

Had you driven a car?
Then: Nope
Now: Planning to get chauffeur around, HAHA! means gotta get rich bf yo. kidding.

Had you done drugs?
Then: nope
Now: never

Had your heart broken?
Then: Not really, just one-sided crush. haha.
Now: Nope, think it will get broken soon.

Who was your favorite teacher?
Then: Derek Tan! Grace Chua!
Now: Ms wong hehehehe.

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter?
Then: Single.
Now: STILL Single, by choice (:

Biggest Difference Between Then and Now?
Then: I enjoyed all the student privileges
Now: Time to fend for myself

Do You Like It More Then or Now?
Hard to say (: But I always look forward, so I prefer now.

2008-03-09T13:39:00.004+08:00

Randoms shots taken with my beloved k770i (:

From top to bottom, left to right:

Me + Steff/Nat Ho! Even Zeqi agreed tt he's cute =P/Me + Zhi/View of CCK/Window of my house/Me + Bao + Cupcake/Breathtaking view from my office!!/Steff looking absolutely smitten with tigger =P/Zipai queens

2008-03-09T12:38:00.002+08:00

I wonder if anyone still visits my blog . Haha. Looking at the state of my tagboard, I suspect not. Lol.

So HCI did exceedingly well in 2007 A levels! Record-breaking performance, even. For the first time, it is for a good record that's going down in history. 3 9 Distinctions, 63 8 Distinctions and 143 7 Distinctions!! Omg please beat that! I think we surpassed RJ for the first time in many years (: Very happy and proud to be part of HC. It's surprising to hear this from me cuz I'm not the let's-do-it-for-sch-spirit type of person. But when I was in the school hall, together with 900+ other hopefuls, listening to Mr Ang's endless speech, I actually felt a wave of pride surging within me. It was exceptionally heartening because as the first IP batch, we had faced numerous doubts coming from school, parents, even ourselves that we would perform on par with previous batches.

As for myself, I'm quite content with the 6 distinctions I've got. 4As in content subjects is something I thought I could only dream of, not capable of achieving. The only small regret is C in gp ): But I kind of expected it anyway. Being a bit defensive here, but I think results aren't very indicative of your abilities. Shit happens during exams and you nvr know who marks your papers. Lol. Come to think of it, I think our class deserves better grades in GP!! Only 5As out of 26 ppl. Hope Ms Lim isn't too disappointed.

Everlyn proves to be very news-worthy again!! She was captured by the Lianhe Zaobao photographer and her exuberance was displayed on the papers for all to see. HAHAHA. So cute la. Not bad lor, my back was captured too. Haha! Cuz I was hugging ever and they happened to snap pic at tt point in time.

Went for SMU and NTU open house yesterday with rebecca and her mum. Her daddy was very nice to chauffeur us around :D I was not very impressed by the SMU speaker during the admission talk. Not intending to demean her but she was not presenting the SMU image I was expecting. Oh well. I think the students there made up for the inadequacies. They look, sound and are confident. Haha. NTU is just...( fill in your own adjective) Okay I'm being kinda biased because:

1) It's freaking far from my house
2) My brother's from SMU
3) I'm not even vaguely interested in most of the courses they offer

But even rebecca and ever agreed with me that e talk is boring!! Haha. Can't really blame us you know...

Oh ya, ever and I found discrepancies in the reporting of A level results!! Sshhhh cannot say if not we kena zham. haha. Well, as AVID and CURIOUS readers who are CONCERNED with the current affairs, we wrote an email to the journalist who reported e piece of news. Hope to hear from her soon. Heh heh. We got very "righteous" and felt that it was only right to highlight it to the reporter LOL.

Time to ponder on the courses and scholarships to apply for...I'm quite decided on the path i'm gonna take. Don't say I fickle-minded again ah! Ask me two weeks later which course I want to study I'd probably give you the same answer (:

2008-02-25T22:31:00.003+08:00

Hello!

Have not been updating for a while. Nothing much to update anyway. I'm not the kind who chronicles her life cuz half the time i don't remember what happens after a few days. LOL. Maybe if you asked me what I had for dinner I'd have forgotten. Not today though. I remember what I ate yesterday.

Something I have yet to forget is that I bought a new phone yesterday!!! Finally a phone that has viable functions. It's the cool and stylish Sony Ericsson K770i!! At least that's what the brochure said. HAHAHA. I could have bought the violet one if it came with better-matching buttons and also if they had stock. Brown is the best bet.

Life is getting more and more routine for my liking. No challenges at all. Throw some tasks on my path!! Lol. Urgh getting very bored so I shall not litter my entry with nonsensical lines.

Next thursday is a very special day HAHAHA. My family is going out to celebrate for me!! I'm gonna make sure it happens. heh. My mum actually asked me if i wanna invite my friends over. Might consider it. Hmmmm.

2008-02-17T11:56:00.004+08:00

Handbags and Gladrags

Ever seen a blind man cross the road
trying to make the other side
Ever seen a young girl growing old
trying to make herself a bride
So what becomes of you my love
When they have finally stripped you of
The handbags and the gladrags
that your poor old Granddad had to sweat to buy you

Once I was a young man
and all I thought I had to do was smile
Well you are still a young girl
and you bought everything in style

But once you think you're in you're out
'cause you don't mean a single thing without
the handbags and the gladrags
that your poor old Granddad had to sweat to buy you

Sing a song of six-pence for your sake
And drink a bottle full of rye
Four and twenty blackbirds in a cake
And bake them all in a pie

They told me you missed school today
So what I suggest you just throw them all away
the handbags and the gladrags
that your poor old Granddad had to sweat to buy

They told me you missed school today
So what I suggest is you just throw them all away
the handbags and the gladrags
that your poor old Granddad had to sweat to buy you

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Ever tried making yourself feel upset by tuning in to melancholic songs before you go to sleep? That's what I did yesterday night. Maybe I had too much of a good time this week heh. While listening to those tunes, I realised I am a much happier person now compared to last year. The ghost of self-doubt has mostly vanished. I have relinquished negativity and welcomed optimism. Think the effect of Excuse me, your life is now is becoming more and more evident.

"You are not your current circumstance, but the creator of it." Instead of dwelling on the downside of things, we can simply choose to change the experience. Shifting your attention from being the circumstance to being the person experiencing a circumstance will enable you to generate positive feelings and attract more of what you want! Maybe this will sound preposterous and absurd to you. Just try getting yourself out of your rut and focus creating something u want! Hmmm something worthwhile to ponder on.

Anyway, as a creator (haha), I quitted my job at TTSH and will start work as a receptionist at hui qi's law firm tmr! I think I'm quite a job hopper ): But then, my reason for quitting the TTSH job is quite valid. The jobscope my agent described to me does not tally with what we did at TTSH! So out of 9 temps hired, 7 eventually quit. It's amazing. On the very first day, one person reported sick and went home early. Second day, 2 or 3 persons did not come cuz they were ill. On the third day, about 6 of us (including me) resigned. WITW! I felt quite bad for abandoning geraldine when she needed help, but I lost my voice on the 2nd day itself and could not help her out on friday. sigh. I interviewed 80+ ppl on the 2nd day and lost my voice subsequently. Too hiong alr. haha. Other ppl only interviewed 40-50+ ppl lor. haha.

Hui Qi, don't think you'll read this, but good luck working at wl's company!! Wish you didn't have to leave though. Then we can work together hahaha.

2008-02-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hello!

So the CNY break is over, and everybody is back to work except ME. Zuojin, Steff and Weiwen are returning to the schools to teach. Other squadmates are trudging back to their offices. I'm staying at home; frictionally unemployed. Not gloating or whatsoever. I really need to find a full-time temporary job soon!!! Like, this week or the next. I'll spam and send resumes to all short-listed employers and hope they'll give me a reply asap.

Meanwhile, I'll start on Excuse Me, Your Life is Now by Doreen Banaszak. I promised myself to brave through all 194 pages (all words, no pics!) and consciously apply the concepts and ideas to my life as much as possible. No more excuses for abandoning the book halfway. This is one wordy non-fiction book I'm going to conquer! haha. By the way I really hate non-fiction books being void of illustrations. Even a stupid cartoon sketch would be good. And I cannot stand cookbooks which have NO PICTURES. how do you expect readers to know how the food should look like?! Goodness.

Gotta catch up on my sleep cuz i had blardy insomnia ytd from 12mn till 5a.m. DO NOT EVER TAKE CLARINASE BEFORE YOU GO TO SLEEP. you will suffer the fate of countless tosses and turns in bed, two complimentary eye circles and mental agility which you will NOT be thankful for.

2008-02-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

Endless walls of people at the MTR station! Trains come once every 40+ seconds.

Dinner @ Springdeer Restaurant. The man is friendly :D

Day 3-1st Feb

The Peak Tram. A historic funicular railway that takes us up an incline so steep that buildings look like they are leaning at a 45-degree angle!

View from the back of the tram...Going steeper and steeper...

Andy Lau! Poster of his wax figure at Madam Tussaud's

Steff's favourite :D

Poor Bruce Lee kena bullied by squadmates.

Career, Luck, Love, Wealth, Intelligence, Health.

View of HK CBD area from the top of the Peak!
Luxurious houses atop the Peak.

Look at how strong the wind is!!!

Hui Qi looks like she'll get blown away if she wasn't holding onto the glass panel.

The highest house on the Peak. I think.

Whee! My favourite picture (:

Tai Ping Shan! What the locals refer to the Peak as.

Colourful flowers!

Cheryl, Wei Li, Steff and I on the tram.

Going back down...

Weiwen, Zuojin and Cheryl. On our way to Shen Zhen!!!

Day 4-2nd Feb

Welcome to Window of the World! Where you can see world wonders all in one place. How i wish it was not raining!! Then we could walk around longer, admiring the sceneries.

Rain did not dampen our spirit of taking pics!

(fake) Eiffel Tower

The lanterns hanging from this gate fell 1 second after Steff and I took picture before it!

Taj Mahal~~~

Can anyone enlightened me on what this is???

We are GIANTS! Spot the photographer =P

Windmills!

Gondolas...isn't the scenery awesome?

Steff must be thinking, "Why the hell are you intruding my picture!!"

Eiffel Tower, Arc de Triomphe, Fountain all in one shot. My fave location in WOTW!

Colosseum of Rome

The Pyramids!

Niagara Falls! Wei Li's favourite part of WOTW.

Can you spot the birds?

Back to Jurassic Period!

The Thinker

Squadmates being retarded.

Day 5-3rd feb

No pictures cuz we were frantically doing last-min shopping!!!

Day 6-4th Feb

This is considered photo taken on 4th feb cuz we were shopping on the 3th till it's past 12midnight! All hail the shopping queens (:

Alright, this is all i want to post for the trip. For a detailed recount of our vacation trip, please go to steff's blog. hahaha. Maybe I will blog more tmr! It's late and i wanna sleep, tata!

HK-SZ trip '08 Part I

2008-02-07T19:53:00.000+08:00

I love HONG KONG!
and CHINESE NEW YEAR!

So, squadmates and i safely returned from hk! That was in fact three days ago. As usual, I did not jump at the chance of blogging the trip down as a memory keepsake of sorts. I'm always so lazy =P Still, I have decided to do a photoblog entry for the sake of squadmates (since most of the photos we took are in my cam =P) and any friends/random people (:

Sqms, I'll upload the full album on our fb grp. (405 pics!)

Warning: Image heavy!

Hong Kong-Shen Zhen Trip 2008
Day 1-30th Jan
Beautiful sunrise from the view of my window!

Even more glorious beams as the sun rises from the horizon.

Look at how cluttered the apartment units are!

The glitzy skyline of Victoria Harbour, where symphony of light show takes place!

We were not deterred by the rain to snap pictures before the beautiful harbour!

Ooooooh the actor with expressive eyes...

A better view of Victoria Harbour.

I dunno what this is, but it's damn cool!

The old Clock Tower near the Star Ferry Concourse.

Ahahahaha only steff succeeded in 'licking' the building.

All of us at Jordan station!

Day 2-31st Jan

Ocean Park, here we come!!

Lui, Guo and Ang showing off their gu3 skills! Don't play play!

Taking a very very steep escalator up to another part of Ocean Park.

Hui Qi and Weiwen, the mehmehs! See, they're even in white!

Breathtaking view of Ocean Park.

The Hermit/Horseshoe Crab (isit?) going gaga!

Woooo The Island.

Steff pointed out that clownfish has downturn lips. So they always look like this: ):

Steff! I donno what's she doing. haha. I forgot what's on display, even.

Brave squadmates who took the Abyss! Steff and I 'hum' after taking the stupid Ferris Wheel -.-

OOOH i caught the dolphin in action!

Sea lion doing its thang!

Watch us slide down with our slippery bellies! I wonder how they manage to make their way up the slide.

There's beauty in symmetry.

Kiss of Life

Ahahaha this picture damn cute ><

Part II coming up...

2008-01-27T13:54:00.000+08:00

HI!

So I'm officially out of job. I quit on my own accord. And they allowed me to leave. I should be screaming and shrilling in ecstasy, as is the usual order of things. But i'm not exactly over the moon, because cxy is still stuck there and my resignation shows my lack of willpower. I'm just not persistent enough to stay on the job. But eventually I convinced myself that I will only stay on for something that I like. Then again, all temp admin jobs are boring. Gotta make sure I stay on my next job for at least three months.

Actually, I can't quite pinpoint the reason for my resignation. Perhaps it's the fear of getting fired. Maybe it's the nature of the job. I'm just not cut out to survive in that environment. It's too competitive as a temporary job. Better to start from something less exciting (no doubt mundane)! Like brainless admin duties or call receptionist. Right now i'm just working for the money. Getting more and more money-minded ahahaha. But i can't help it!!! It's so expensive to travel around when you're officially an adult. And being a classic foodie, I can't and won't compromise on food :D Eating makes me feel less stressed and more happy. Oh and I must thank Jessie for the sumptuous lunch @ Sushi Tei!! It was sooooooo good. Japanese cuisine rocks! I love the chawanmushi and soft-shelled crab maki the most. I ate sashimi for the first time. A bit too slimy for my liking though...

Despite all the unpleasantries and complaints I have of my workplace, I really like the team both cxy and I are posted to! The people in the team are really nice and friendly (: Esp Jessie, my mentor. Really grateful for her guidance in everything. We have some common interests as well. Maybe that's why I became her mentee. heh. hope she gets a better mentee who can help her fill up her orders. haha.

I really love the purple wall! Heh.

2008-01-19T19:17:00.000+08:00

It's time to think about what i want to study in uni. Hard for me to decide, but one thing i know is i will study something i'm good at. All of a sudden, i realised that studying sth you're not good at will be exhausting and pointless. Exhausting because you have to make much more effort than others to perform as well as them. Pointless because eventually you're just a jack of all trades, master of none. At least that's why i think.

There's a limit to how far one can go. Even if i try really hard i can't possibly force myeself to become a shrewd, business-minded woman. So, i think i will not take up business in smu. I need to find my own niche. Only problem now is that i don't know what it is. 7 more months to start of uni, still have some time i guess..

Recently I discovered how quick-tempered and violent i can get. Sad, but true. lol. I should stop wearing my heart on my sleeve so often. It's gonna land me into trouble someday. Ought to curb my tendency to blurt out spiteful words in the heat of the moment as well. Most people won't get to see this side of me though...only when i'm really agitated and frustrated will i lose my cool.

Talking to son is therapeutic. ahahaha. He makes a lot of sense. About education, career and life in general. Should consult him more. Next time he become some bigshot motivational speaker may need to charge $$$. lol.

Hmmmm..perhaps it's time to turn to books for a peace of mind.

2008-01-19T09:55:00.000+08:00

there are so many things i can't be bothered with...

each day of this new year is so repetitive and meaningless.

just wanna get myself out of this rut.

i'm tired of complaining...

New year resolutions!

2008-01-08T00:31:00.000+08:00

I'm still online at this hour.. I think i'm a potential workaholic. can't believe i brought work home to do. SIGH. nvm, don't think i'll last long.

Anyway, i've promised to post the new year resolutions so here goes:

1. To be extremely organised in work as well as school.
2. Not to procrastinate work till the very last minute.
3. Presevere and never give up pursuing my passions.
4. Not to spend $$$ unnecessarily.
5. Stay healthy and steer away from the doctor's as much as possible. hahaha.

Okay my brain's protesting...so are my eyelids and fingers...and arms...GOODNIGHT!

HAPPY NEW YEAR (:

2008-01-01T00:32:00.001+08:00

hey! HAPPY NEW YEAR <3

went cycling with the class at east coast park today! it was a fulfilling outing because we cycled for damn long. apparently 30km, according to mitch. i can feel the toll it has taken on me. aching buttcheeks, sore thighs and weak knees. but it was good exercise la. luckily i'm not starting work tmr! i would take a long time walking down 9 storeys. lol.

anyway, i have decided to name myself "germaine". out of the four names i have short-listed, it is the only one which my friends (who all have different opinions) thought wasn't tacky or slutty or plain boring. lol. it was out of pure coincidence that jaclyn's cousin has the exact same name too! was quite surprised as i had thought that it's quite uncommon. hmmm. it's the best i can get, so i'm gonna stick with it (:

i have several new year resolutions, but i have yet to sort them out properly, so guess i'll post them again soon. maybe tmr. right now, i have one immediate new year wish: not to get bullied at workplace. ahahahaha. i have heard horror stories about worklife and i'm very apprehensive of office politics. but i'll my back covered and not get into anyone's bad books. especially the supervisor.

good luck to me (:

2007-12-27T13:59:00.000+08:00

HOLA! (pronounced as oh-la!)

it seemed like i have been up to my neck this festive season, judging from my absence from the blogosphere. the truth is, my habitual laziness kicked in faster than expected (: to make matters worse, i suffered from an unfortunate bout of fever on christmas' eve. but i recovered-at a miraculous speed- as i popped half a tablet of paracetamol without developing any symptoms of allergy!!! the dose was not enough to chase away the usual aching though. anyhow, i decided that today i am well enough to do some finger exercise here.(: think i may even proceed to some real, physical exercise later. hmmm..

as of 2jan, i'll be working at recruit express (orchard branch) as a contract recruit consultant! if you or your friends is/are in need of a job, please feel free to look for me at takashimaya! okay i don't know if i can do advertising here so if you want details please contact me at 9******4(hahahaha) starting 2jan! and i'll be adopting an english name because of the ubiquitousness of my given name. (such that i have a colleague with the same name!!!-chua xin yi in case you're wondering) will update on the decided name asap! i hope i'll be able to rise up to the challenges in my job. looking forward to the new year ahead!

2007-12-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

Hello!

Back from m'sia! this time round i learnt how to make sushi and cupcakes. yay. in a way the trip's been kind of fruitful. spent the whole of yesterday travelling (on car, train and bus) because the railway was damaged by heavy rains in southern m'sia. the train was late for TWO AND A HALF HOURS. @#%(()%!~&*#@#! what's with the weather man. last year i was stranded in m'sia because of the floods. this year i took over 10 hours to reach s'pore.

my cousin went for this middle-brain development course during the weekend. it's called blindfold learning method. it's quite amazing, really. she can "feel" which card (out of theusual deck of 52) has been given to her while being blindfolded. actually she only got it right on the first try and messed up the subsequent ones (cuz we were all too noisy haha), but i'm still very bewildered by the ability to know which card it is by using only the sense of touch.

this explains my sudden interest in left/right brain thingy. upon doing some online quizzes, i discovered that i'm a right-brained person! it never occurred to me that i could be one, until i read the assessment of the questions.

http://www.news.com.au/couriermail/story/0,23739,22556678-23272,00.html?from=mostpop

click on the link and find out which one you are! i managed to change the direction, but somehow it always reverts back to the original one when i gave it a second look. haha.

/edited\

OMG!! i was tricked by the picture on the website!!! click on the link and see if you can point out what's wrong with it. some kind of optical illusion man. what a hoax.

2007-12-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

Just thought that i should post this hilarious convo that wei li and i were having earlier on. CAUTION: explicit details ahead.
.............

(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hmmm yup!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i'll go paris for honeymoon!
weili i love you. says:
i want to go europe and us
weili i love you. says:
but i think i'll be broke hahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
save lorrrr
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
marry rich husband
weili i love you. says:
lol rich husband difficult to find
weili i love you. says:
i want to marry at 25 or sth
weili i love you. says:
and have kids at 27
weili i love you. says:
haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
too early for me
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
think i'll only give birth after 30
weili i love you. says:
really?
weili i love you. says:
haha
weili i love you. says:
i want to have kids early
weili i love you. says:
so when i grow old at least they're still not too young
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hmmm
weili i love you. says:
i read somewhere early 20s is the prime time to give birth for the female body lol.
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
weili i love you. says:
but i think v few ppl actually marry early now
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
but you can't set just decide what age to give birth by
weili i love you. says:
that's true haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
just let things find its own pace
weili i love you. says:
but i'd prefer to have kids early!
weili i love you. says:
hopefully before i hit 30
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hmmm
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
yah not too latw
weili i love you. says:
i scared later i infertile or sth
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
*late
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
WON'T LA
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
lol
weili i love you. says:
lolllll
weili i love you. says:
why not@
weili i love you. says:
last time when i pri sch
weili i love you. says:
i sucked pencil lead to see how it will taste
weili i love you. says:
CCC says lead in the body will make someone infertile
weili i love you. says:
x(
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
HELLO
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
that is NOT lead
weili i love you. says:
ok fine
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
it's graphite!!!!!!!!!
weili i love you. says:
but still!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
OMG
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
wei li
weili i love you. says:
it's poisonous!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hahahahahahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
ot
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
it's GRAPHITE, I.E CARBON
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
NOT LEAD
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
CARBON NOT POISONOUS
weili i love you. says:
ok so can i eat pencil lead?
weili i love you. says:
ahahahahahahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
by all means
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
if you find it tasty enough
weili i love you. says:
but i thought pencil lead have a small amount of lead!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
NOOOOO
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hahahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
okay so funny
weili i love you. says:
i know it's graphite!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
this is so funny
weili i love you. says:
but still got leaddddddddddddd
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
NOOOOOO
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i read somewhere which says tt it doesn't!!
weili i love you. says:
really!!!!!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
it's too harmful la
weili i love you. says:
i shall go and google it
weili i love you. says:
hahahahahaa
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
can u imagine lead being so accessible??
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
everybody will die from lead poisoning!
weili i love you. says:
ok no lead
weili i love you. says:
hahahahaha my article cheat me
weili i love you. says:
means i'm not infertile!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
omg
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
you're so funny
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hahaha
weili i love you. says:
whatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt]
weili i love you. says:
haahahahahahaha
weili i love you. says:
im chooking my my cookie
weili i love you. says:
ow
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hahaha
weili i love you. says:
i bit my finger
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
ouch
weili i love you. says:
from laughing too hard
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
rofl
weili i love you. says:

(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
today i burnt my ring finger ):
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i was too trusting. i thought the pot is not hot
weili i love you. says:
how come!
weili i love you. says:
hahahahahahahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
weili i love you. says:
last time
weili i love you. says:
i touched the iron to see if it's hot
weili i love you. says:
..
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
wow
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
so is it hot?
weili i love you. says:
yes
weili i love you. says:
hahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
loll
weili i love you. says:
no actually
weili i love you. says:
i wanted to see how hot it was
weili i love you. says:
you know when i was young i think i was damn psycho
weili i love you. says:
i'll go stick my fingers in electrical sockets to see if i will get electocuted
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
OMG!
weili i love you. says:
and i will press my eyeballs to see if they will burst
weili i love you. says:
and suck on pencil lead to see if i will die
weili i love you. says:
HAHAHA
weili i love you. says:
i think i was crazy
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
YOU'RE SO CRAZYYYY
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
neurotic
weili i love you. says:
ya and i will cross my eyes
weili i love you. says:
to see if it will stay that way
weili i love you. says:
hahahahahahahahahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i loved rolling my eyes
weili i love you. says:
cos my mama last tiem say if press eyeballs too hard will burst
weili i love you. says:
so i tried it to see if it really will burst
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i thought it was the coolest action on earth
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
weili i love you. says:
i did it everytime before i slept
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
if burst how?
weili i love you. says:
hahaha srsly!
weili i love you. says:
i also dont know
weili i love you. says:
hahahahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
loll
weili i love you. says:
lol i think i'm mad
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i always roll my eyes at stupid boys
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
who piss me off
weili i love you. says:
srs!
weili i love you. says:
HAHAHAHA
weili i love you. says:
im trying to imagine a small xy rolling her eyes
weili i love you. says:
like in pri sch?
weili i love you. says:
as in in pri sch you roll ur eyes?
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
pri sch
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
oh man we shld post this on blog
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
so super hilarious
weili i love you. says:
hahaha yes ok maybe later
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hahaha
weili i love you. says:
im currently v excited at the ocean park rides
weili i love you. says:
go see!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hmmm
weili i love you. says:
got one called the drago
weili i love you. says:
n
weili i love you. says:
like v shiok leh
weili i love you. says:
roller coasterrrrrrrrrrrrr
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
oooh
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i'll scream my head off
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
omg
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i'll sit next to u and blast ur eardrums
weili i love you. says:
ok!
weili i love you. says:
HAHAHA
weili i love you. says:
got the abyss!
weili i love you. says:
like tower of terror
weili i love you. says:
drop from 20 floors
weili i love you. says:
lets go sit that too
weili i love you. says:
we should ALL sit that
weili i love you. says:
great bonding experience LOLOLOL
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
omggg
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
okay
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
BUT
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
did u read about the girl who lost her feet while taking a similar ride?
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
super scary
weili i love you. says:
HAR
weili i love you. says:
WHY
weili i love you. says:
i know got people hair kena ripped off her scalp
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
yahh
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
OMG
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
cuz
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
the cable was loose
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
and cut at her ankle
weili i love you. says:
YUCK YUCK YUCK YUCK
weili i love you. says:
ok we should not sit that anymore
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
weili i love you. says:
i don't want to lose my scalp or feet
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
okay im just scaring u
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
it MAY NOT happen
weili i love you. says:
hahaha i sat the genting one though
weili i love you. says:
WHAT MAY NOT
weili i love you. says:
IT CANNOT
weili i love you. says:
hahaha
weili i love you. says:
if it MAY happen
weili i love you. says:
no way are you going to make me sit on that ride hahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hahahhaa
weili i love you. says:
ok but there's always a "may"
weili i love you. says:
howhowhow
weili i love you. says:
should be sit
weili i love you. says:
o.o
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
sit la
weili i love you. says:
ok
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
shouldn't worry too much
weili i love you. says:
let's hope we all come back in one piece
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
luckily we have short hair
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hahahaha
weili i love you. says:
YA!
weili i love you. says:
i was about to say that
weili i love you. says:
hahahaha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
okay i'll get some amulet
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
weili i love you. says:
yaaaa
weili i love you. says:
i think must tie hair up one
weili i love you. says:
can you imagine your hair ripped off with ur scalp
weili i love you. says:
wtf!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i'll cry till there's no more tears
weili i love you. says:
hahaha i think you'll be in shock
weili i love you. says:
how to cry
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
eh
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i'll cry at the hospital
weili i love you. says:
hahahaha ok!
weili i love you. says:
anyway
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
what okay
weili i love you. says:
ocean park looks fun
weili i love you. says:
the viking looks fun too
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
hmmm
weili i love you. says:
i like viking
weili i love you. says:

(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
me too
weili i love you. says:
but when the boat coming down i always feel like peeing
weili i love you. says:
lolol
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
lol
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i'll scream
weili i love you. says:
hahaha i usually whoop
weili i love you. says:
you know on scary ride
weili i love you. says:
s
weili i love you. says:
i laugh
weili i love you. says:
HAHAHA
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i'll feel as if my heart's gonna escape from my throat
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
yay
weili i love you. says:
hahaha
weili i love you. says:
i scared later i get heart attack halfway
weili i love you. says:

weili i love you. says:
but it's so dumb
weili i love you. says:
i go escape sit scary rides i laugh
weili i love you. says:
HAHAHA
weili i love you. says:
can you imagine
weili i love you. says:
everyone scream then i'm laughing there
weili i love you. says:
witw.
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i laugh w u
weili i love you. says:
lol i think scared until laugh
weili i love you. says:
but anyway
weili i love you. says:
i like scary rides
weili i love you. says:
hahah
weili i love you. says:
if got scary rides i never sit i feel as if i'm missing a once in a lifetime chance x)
weili i love you. says:
anyway escape now $7 entry!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
ooh!
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
i don't particularly like rides
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
haha
(: wxy dark chocolate <3 星云 [06S71] says:
but i'll sit anw
weili i love you. says:
rly?
weili i love you. says:
hahaha i see scary rides as a challenge to my guts
weili i love you. says:
lolllll
weili i love you. says:
you know last time those pasar malams have those like rolle coaster rides
weili i love you. says:
the super high ones
weili i love you. says:
i used to love to sit
weili i love you. says:
hahahahaha

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2007-12-06T20:19:00.000+08:00

so...

prom wasn't half as bad as i had expected! haha. i was kind of dreading it because of the dress, accessories, and of course the nomination thing. it seemed like i was unduly worried. boy, it didn't seem-i WAS unduly worried! hahaha. i enjoyed myself right from the start. it probably helped that i had very low expectations of it in the first place. as the saying goes, the higher your expectations, the harder you fall. and vice versa. lol.

and i got to know a few other people in school, e.g. tammy, songjun, olivia and nicholas lim. they're all rather friendly :D and i walked up the stage with nicholas! i honestly thought he's one of the best dressed males in the ballroom. he stands out from the crowd because he was wearing something quite different. vest, paired with striped shirt and tie. okay at least quite different to ME. haha. kaysiong had the same outfit too! they looked really good.

i wanted to take pics with some people whom i don't know...but i didn't dare to approach them in case i left the wrong impression on them. haha. like why is this girl wanting to take picture with me?! haha. but come to think of it, it's the last official school event and nobody's gonna give a damn. oh well.

so anyway, here are the results for the awards!

Prom King: Jaryll
Prom Queen: Wen Hui
Mr Congeniality: Clarence Chio
Miss Congeniality: Clara How
Mr Body Beautiful: Austin
Miss Body Beautiful: Tammy

i think they all deserved to win (: i was busy taking pics so i didn't vote at all. haha. anyway it's back to short, mushroom hair for me!!! it's so much easier to manage.

i'll let the pictures do the talking!

Pardon the geisha-like complexion...the makeup artist put on foundation that's a tad too light for my face.

Michelle! She looks fit for a glamorous wedding. I love her gown!

Lucky edmund. HAHAHAHA.

Ksiong!

Meimei!

sweet-looking wensi!

m8 and f8! he looked really suave.

Wen Hui the Prom Queen! She's oozing charm, poise and elegance~

Mitch and us!

Zhiming, me and Junyu. Don't you think junyu looks like chen bang jun?! the starsearch winner!

Tammy the unanimous HOT babe of hwa chong (:

OCIP Shanghai. Girls' domination. haha.

Four of us!!

HCVB '07! zhizhi not in the picture cuz she didn't go prom ):

Babes of 06S71! We all looked fabulous!

Pheiphei! (((:

2007-11-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

URGH.

prom shopping is such a big chore. i have half the mind not to go for prom. i may have to get another one cuz the one i have now seems quite informal. so vexing!! i wished i went for the package instead. settles everything for you. don't have to shop around like a mad cow trying to get everything into place.

i had another bout of paracetamol scare on tuesday. the area surrounding my eyes got very very swollen and red. i swear NEVER to take such risk again. it took one whole day for the swelling to fully subside. so i spent the two days at home doing nothing except sleeping, eating and watching tv. hahahaha.

2007-11-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

hello!

i've been updating the blog almost everyday since the big break. that's an acheivement, you know. haha. so anyway, i met up with the pri-sch gals at cityhall area today! it's cool that we're still keeping in contact and all (: i think not many people i know are still in touch with their pri-sch friends. they are people who have known you since, FOREVER! okay it's not that long really, but you spent much of your childhood with them, being your stupidest/silliest self and doing the most childish things with them. shucks i'm only 18 and i feel damn old alrdy. can't rmbr much of my pri sch days actually...you know how far my memory lane goes =P

so we walked round suntec and marina square. found some nice stuff and all, but quite expensive. it reminded me how desperate i am for a JOB. but i'm probably gonna put it on the back burner till i come back from m'sia. for now i'll try to survive on my meagre amount of savings and pocket$. hehe. after walking in and out of shops, i ended up buying my accessory in the same shop which i bought my prom dress from. -.- talk about having a put-together look. lol. think if they sell shoes i'd buy from there too. but i didn't la.

i'm sorta having a sore throat. i wonder how i'm gonna sing at kbox tmr. i shouldn't have ate nuts today. darn. and i need new contacts! should i buy the coloured ones? hmmmmmm. any colours other than hazel, brown and honey seems scary to me. maybe i won't be game enough to try.

so here are the photos:

being aunty-ish and posing before a christmas tree.

FOOD!

cherlyn and phyllis.

wei xin and cherlyn.

dorothy and i.

MORE FOOD!

we went shutter-happy at the suntec fountain! i love the ambience. very soothing and relaxing.

our looks of satisfaction after enjoying our desserts (: too bad don't have dorothy's. she looked super happy. haha.

i'm off to bed now, tata!

2007-11-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

I have one thousand and one things which i wanna buy:(but might not be able to afford lest i work NOWWWWWWW)

1. A portable, ideally lightweight and small digital camera
2. A new mobile phone when my plan ends next Feb.
3. Myself a trip to France! (okay that's a near impossibility. LOL.)
4. New iPod earphones to replace the old and dying ones
5. Clothes!
6. Accessories!
7. Oven! okay this one i don't need to pay. haha.
8. and the list goes on.....
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2007-11-22T20:06:00.000+08:00

It's been one month and four days since i've updated! gosh. that was really long. was an emo post somemore. lol. but i'm over it now, and that's all that matters (: i became tired of avoiding people i don't want to see, so i decided to just treat them as transparent. good skill to learn, i tell you. haha. well, life's too short to be dwelling on unhappy stuff! so let's get to the opposite spectrum.

the freedom which we have all been waiting for has finally made its grand arrival! but i don't quite feel the sense of relief i've been expecting. maybe it's cuz im bogged down by the things i'm gonna do for the next half a year or so. it's like "i must do this, i must try that!" which is pretty ironic. haha.

i think there's a likelihood i'd switch to lj! i like the layout there (: when the mood strikes me i shall make a switch. there's a possibility that it might not happen too. haha.

Found a great quote from Keira Knightley: I have self-esteem problems. Everybody does. You know, skinny people are allowed to feel s___ about themselves.

speaks my mind, totally. sorry i may sound like a hypocritical brat ranting about gaining weight when everybody else (or not) wants to lose more pounds, but that's really what i need! i actually lost weight during the exam period, probably due to stress. i've always maintained at that value whether i exercise or not. think As really took a toll on me (kg-wise). somehow i think i became shorter too ): i feel like a dwarf beside sylvia. and pauline. especially today. hahaha.

i'm on a get-fat-or-die-trying mission now. must pile back all the kilograms onto myself!!! gorge on icecream, chocolate, yoghurt, fried chicken, yadaa yadaa. CALORIES. yummmmmm. hahahaha. i'm actually searching for weight-gaining methods online! i doubt they would work though..

2007-10-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

and all i ask for is a growth in strength, because only in strength can i grow, to see the world with a new perspective, to leave it all behind when it does not matter.

people says what does not bring you to your knees only makes you stronger. even if your knees are buckling, and your legs cannot hold much longer, brace yourself for one last retort at your opponents. and you may find yourself towering over problems that now seem minor.

the light might not have shone on me now...but one day i will find the true meaning of life, from that beacon of brightness i'll see the truth that's hidden away from me.

2007-09-29T21:16:00.000+08:00

hi all!

i've never been so "obedient" before. i did all the housework today!!! muahahaha. in the morning, i soaked the clothes and put them into the washing machine. then i retrieved all the dry laundry and placed them back into the closets. afterwhich, i vacuumed the floors. i also just cooked dinner and mopped the floors ((((: and the reason behind my sudden outburst of independence? my parents are away in malaysia! haha. why else would i be so hardworking in doing housework. i'm so proud of myself! maybe i can survive alone overseas, afterall. but i still don't like the idea of living on my own without my loved ones in the vicinity ):

p.s.: all i can cook is instant noodles because there's nothing much left in the fridge. lol.

2007-09-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

the taking back of gp was just...utterly demoralising. worse still, the feeling had only fully sunken in when i reached home. guess i couldn't break down in front of my classmates? i let out a shrilling scream when i stepped into the house. lol. thank goodness my mum was not at home to witness her daughter behaving like a mad woman.

sigh. and i think i don't even have any questions to ask ms lim regarding my essay because it's so atrociously short! i supposed that's the reason why the marker did not give many comments. i'm so ashamed of my essay i'm gonna put it into the shredding machine. except that i don't have one. haha.

yeah...and more demoralising papers to come ^^ hooray i'm so looking forward to the next week! we're getting back our worst bio paper EVER. haha. or maybe it's just ME. think i'll just brace myself for the worst. my expectations are like *superly* earth-low (opp of sky-high) now. like ms lim said, we probably lacked luck this time round. oh well...we all die together ((:

in other news, i'm tempted to watch two more shows apart from the one i'm fervently watching now. )): this is bad. but urgh i need to have some leisure time too!

okay, hope tomorrow would be a better day.

2007-08-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

August-Rilo Kiley

august
i'll see you soon
under yellow moons
where i'll gather what's left of you

and august
i'm on your side
or did i speak too soon?
now we've crossed the great divide

someday we will meet beyond the stars
and it'll be away from here
someday we'll meet beyond the time and the bars
and it will be away from here

august
august of last year
before the leaves disappeared
told me you were not the one

august
something in your eyes
or was it that July
told me not to take it to heart

someday we will meet beyond the stars
and it will be away from here
someday we will meet beyond the limits of who we are
and it will be away from here

someday we will meet beyond the stars
and it'll be away from here
someday we'll meet beyond the land that you call miles away
away from here

2007-08-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

by (not so) popular demand, i have decided to update in my almost-defunct blog (: it's been close to a month! it's all due to my lack of inspiration on what to write, which is largely attributed to the fact that my brain isn't capable of mugging and blogging at the same time. i kind of would like to preserve the status quo because i really really need to be focused now, just days before the prelims. i got pretty freaked this morning when i realised i forgot what i had studied the night before! sometimes i really wonder what is my brain made of ): i'm particularly curious with the part that has to do with memory space. it must be ultra tiny and UN-convuluted. hmmm.

while waiting for Secret OST to be fully downloaded, i shall search for THE prom dress (((: i'm so happy that my mum agreed to having a custom-made one. that reduces my risk of running into someone else wearing the same thing to zero.

"And so to us the totality of love is what we feel. But to really love someone requires commitment, fidelity and vulnerability." Rev. Brian Kolodiejchuk

2007-07-28T00:34:00.000+08:00

My dreams are getting more and more realistic. I’m afraid one day I might not be able to differentiate between reality and dreams. Sometimes I would suddenly recall certain details of a person, for instance the comments that he/she makes, or the actions that he/she do. It takes me a while to figure out whether it took place in my dreams or in real life. Scary, isn’t it? It’s not exactly affecting me now, so I’m not that concerned yet. I have always wondered why we have dreams. And why do our dreams (well, at least mine) show such a striking resemblance to our conscious life? I have many more similar questions that are swimming in my brain. I think that’s why I look pensive/contemplative half the time. I look almost…absent. Haha. But I’m not always thinking because sometimes I’m really just too drowsy and unbothered to look alert. i often look sleepy and moody in the mornings. haha.

These days I learnt that there is no point in driving yourself up the wall with insignificant happenings around you. Paranoia never gets you anywhere. It would probably age you, that’s all.

hmmm i realised that this blog post doesn't make much sense. oh well doesn't matter. gonna sleep!

2007-07-22T19:59:00.000+08:00

time traveler's wife:

Clare smiles. "How could you lose me? I'm not going anywhere."

"I worry that you will get tired of putting up with my undependableness and you will leave me."

Clare puts her sketchbook aside. I sit up. "I won't ever leave you," she says. "Even though you're always leaving me."

"But I never want to leave you."

2007-07-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

HELLO! today is one of my chong-home-and-nap-then-mug days :D

i have this urge to change my blogskin because i'm getting increasingly tired of it. hmmm. point is i can't find one which i really like. and i don't have the time to make one myself. so it's likely to stay for as long as possible.

well i'm pretty happy with my BT2 grades. considering the amount of effort i put in for BT2 is at least twice that for BT1, i would be devastated if i have gotten the same grades as BT1. Then again, it was said that effort does not necessarily translate into results.

can't say the same for GP though. i think there must be a reason why i stapled my question paper on top of my answer booklet after GP exam. i must have known that my GP grade was going to be unsightly. unsightly indeed. couldn't help but put part of the blame on the invigilator. ooops (: i was so distracted by him/her i wasn't even paying attention to the paper for several minutes. and to top it off, i had some kind of mental block. but the bottomline is that my language skills suck. so i better salvage it before it goes down the drain and never comes back :/

today i confirmed my allergy to panadol/paracetamol. OF ALL DRUGS. LOL. i was half-expecting it anyway, so it didn't come off as a huge surprise. i ate one before i took a nap, and when i woke up i could feel the right side of my face, specifically the undereye area, swelling. then i looked into the mirror and concluded that actually it looks better with the swelling. LOL. don't ask me why, i don't quite know either. as i'm typing i'm sneezing away. i hate flussssssssssssssss. ROAR. immune system please be strong and fight the viral infection!

reading time traveler's wife is a pleasure. but all the time travelling trips that henry makes are confusing to the mind. i gave up figuring why there are two of him in certain time spaces and just took it as it is. hopefully i can finish it before it's due.

sleepy, as always. tata!

2007-07-09T19:59:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Back from town with my table partners :D we just discovered sth really cool at shaw house! It’s the xbox player just next to lido theatre. for the first time in my life I actually played the xbox game! I sound really suaku, I know. Lol.

We were initially at cathay orchard wanting to watch the Japanese anime film, but it was not showing there so we walked to lido. Sadly it was not available at lido as well )): then we sat down for a while and talked about stuff. And then we discovered the coolio xbox player and decided to give it a try. man it felt like we were little kids once again :D usually I would not be interested to play because I’m lousy with the controller. It takes pretty long for me to figure out the maneuvering of the controller. Well but we felt that we just had to try it! And so we did :D

We played the Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix game and it proved to be super addictive! Our (Harry, Hermione and Ron) first task was to go to the Defence of Dark Arts classroom. we didn’t know that there was the map function (!!!) so we took about 10-20minutes to reach there =P One task leads to the next, and we found ourselves learning the spells at the courtyard! We had fun performing them on innocent people niakhiakhiak. We also got into the secret passage behind the portrait of the old man on the second floor of the stairways. Our final task was to retrieve a book atop a bookcase in the library. We had the hardest time there ): We were supposed to perform the levitation spell, “Wingardium Leviosa” on the stupid table so that we can climb onto it and take the book, but everytime we climbed onto it, the book just eludes us and flies onto the next bookcase!! Eventually we got kind of lazy and gave up. Ahhh but I really want to play it again! Hopefully the next time I go it would still be there.

It’s been a long time since I had so much fun :D hmmm soon I won’t have the luxury to spend my afternoons lazing around like today. Sadly )):

On another note, I’m really relieved that I passed chemistry with satisfactory grade! I was scared stiff a few days ago cuz ms wong said I probably failed my free response. Luckily I didn’t. whew.

Okay I’m off to bathe now. Tata.

2007-07-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

okay i haven't got any idea what's wrong with the photos. gahhh. if it's still screwed then i guess i gotta post again.

ANYWAYS!

here's a light-hearted song:

"Our Song"-Taylor Swift

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says baby is something wrong?
I say nothing I was just thinking how we don't have a song
And he says...

[Chorus:]

Our song is the slamming screen door,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all wrong and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well on my way to my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said...

[Repeat Chorus]

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...

Cause our song is the slamming screen door
Sneaking out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
Cause it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date "man, I didn't kiss him, and I should have"
And when I got home, before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I... wrote down our song

2007-06-30T11:16:00.001+08:00

hmmmm i think i shall post some pictures :D haven't taken pictures with my dears for a long time! especially with my team mates ): i'm waiting for my mobile phone plan to end next february, which is a pretty long wait. i'm gonna get the 5-mexapixel camera phone! or the 6,7 or 8 one which might be released next year. haha. my laopok 3-mexapixel one is dying, and i don't like to carry the pro one around. it's too heavy! i don't know why my brother bought it for. anyway, i koped these photos from alicia's camera.

Alicia, cheryl and me outside the esplanade concert hall on Cantare 2007.

The girls of 06s71! some missing though. not everyone look nice in the other photo.

Alicia and I in the dressing room (: we are both wearing similar dresses. i like it alot! but i like the price MORE-->99S$ haha.

That's me and the XLBs. before i eat them, that is. MUAHAHA.

2007-06-30T10:24:00.001+08:00

HELLO ALL!!!

Haven't updated for ages! well i'm just kind of lazy and lost interest in blogging. hmmmm it seems like i don't have much to blog about. it may be a good thing though. BLOCKS are over! but this time it's not something to be too happy about. because it spells the start of term 3, which would be a darn crazy week. it's only 9weeks to prelims! and goodness-know-how-many weeks to As. call me a mugger, but i reckon i should start to prepare for prelims soon :D

i'm so glad that i managed to finish the bio paper in time! it's probably the first time i could really UNDERSTAND the questions. thank goodness the agonizing pain subsided remarkably. if it was as painful as on thursday, i probably would have lay in bed and refuse to go to school. haha. whew. luckily math wasn't the last paper. URGH and i realised that ONE is NOT a PRIME NUMBER. about 8hours after the paper. woohoo. bet many people didn't realise that. lol.

i'm nursing a swollen face now..): to be exact, it's a swollen right face. it begin with my right eye, then my right cheek seems to become fatter as well! :'( when i place my hands on my face i can feel the slight difference. boohoohoo, first it was the pain, and now the swollen face..wonder what would be up next. i hope the swelling would go off by tmr!

gonna watch my BUMP OFF LOVER on crunchyroll now! ((((:

2007-06-16T10:03:00.000+08:00

OH YES!!!

the spree organiser approved my order. whew, i thought she wasn't going to take my order. now i'm happily waiting for my ae tank to arrive in singapore (: yay online shopping is so convenient. and it's easier to look for something i like. and cheaper too! more variety. lol.

hmmmm. while mugging at home, i got hooked onto BUMP OFF LOVER (aisha 17)! i can't help but to find out who is the murderer from the online forums. it is unlike most other taiwanese idol dramas. i like it much much more than any other taiwanese shows i've watched.

okay i'm gonna watch the show on crunchyroll! yay.

2007-06-11T08:31:00.000+08:00

yes we are meeting at steff's later. i miss steff's house :D i miss steff's tv room :D most of all, i miss my lovely squadmates :D i honestly doubt we will mug. we'd probably just yak the whole evening away. anyhow, i can't wait (:

there are some people in your life whom you want to get close to, but for some reason or another, you can't. no matter how hard you've tried, you just can't seem to make the person open up to you. it's the person's own prerogative to protect his/her privacy, of course, but you can't help but to feel sad that even close friends have some sort of barriers between them. maybe it's the level of trust you have in the other party? like how you would tell your secret to certain friends, but not others?

it takes two parties to build up a strong and lasting relationship. it's not all about taking, but also giving. you can't keep asking unconditioned love and concern from your close ones if you don't even give them the opportunity to do so. at least, that's my take on it.

it's also saddening how two friends cannot develop friendship beyond aquaintance-level because some things come between them. these are things which can't be resolved easily, unlike occasional quarrels or harmless squabbles. by some strange twist of fate, the two become more like archrivals.

hmmmm. i used to be quite bothered by such matters, but now i've learnt to take things as they are and not think about what it should have been. no point in doing so, is there?

2007-06-08T11:11:00.000+08:00

Mika-Grace Kelly

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess Im a little bit shy
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you walk out the door!

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why dont yo like me
Why dont you like me
Why dont you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on the shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you walk out the door!

this song is damn cool! some people might be put off by it but i'm one of those who loves it to bits <3

2007-05-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

BOOOOOOOOOOOO.

i'm terribly upset now. the whole world except me have watched Pirates. nobody can watch with me )))): i should have asked earlier. couldn't watch with the class today cuz i had to accompany my mum. RAHHHHH. okay i hope some kind soul will watch with me soon.

zzz.

2007-05-26T11:05:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh.

term 2 has finally come to an end! but that would signal the beginning of hardcore mugging during the holidays. no, make that STUDY BREAK. it ain't any other holidays! it's more like a month-long preparation for block test 2 and prelims. term 3 is gonna be mind-numbing. WE WILL SURVIVE!!! ultimately...haha.

Anyway, just giving my two cents' worth on some of the comments people make on redsports.sg. to say that HC bballers displayed no sportsmanship by thrashing IJ in the National A div basketball finals is rather preposterous. isn't sportsmanship about behaving in a fair and generous way during a game? Generous doesn’t mean you give points away to your opponents, because that would be utter disrespect for the game itself. To have sportsmanship is to play in a firm and dignified manner; not using unscrupulous means to attain victory. In that sense, how is it that winning by a big margin is equivalent to poor sportsmanship?

Two incidents that occurred on Wed during the netball finals at TPY sports hall got me on my nerves. Pretty badly. Zhi, kai and I were walking up the stairs of the stadium when some guy from some JC actually turned to face us and said “poseurs.” I thought I was hearing things and didn’t bother to give him a second look. But it turned out that zhi heard him too! I was fuming mad after that. Lol. It’s not because he labeled us as poseurs. It’s because he made an unjust judgment about us in just a few seconds! Hello, you just saw us for about 5 seconds and you think you know us? Erps. Yeah, it’s probably because of the red team bag that all of us were carrying that day. I admit it’s quite attention-seeking and loud la. But still…how can we be poseurs?! I think all poseurs will die of shame, knowing that we are labeled as one of them. Lol.

Another incident was that some adult was dissing HC for not applauding when the guest of honour was about to make a speech. He was sitting right below us, so I could hear his comments quite clearly. We were like, HUH?! What’s the need for that comment? I retaliated, but I felt that I shouldn’t have. There isn’t a need to fight back. I should have just ignored whatever he had to say. Whatever. It’s off my chest now, I feel so much better (:

2007-05-17T17:23:00.000+08:00

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2007-05-17T11:34:00.000+08:00

hcvb: A division girls volleyball CHAMPS again!

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh SHA!

i'm so proud to be part of the team. even though i might not been good enough to play on the courts, or i might not have felt the level of anxiety and ultimate euphoria my team mates have experienced during the match, i certainly feel belonged to the team, the team which won the championship for A division volleyball this year. all the hard work and preserverance were paid off. we've set our minds on that goal, and now we've finally got what we've wanted. sadly, the finals marked the end of our volleyball season ): we don't have an official reason to slack off our work anymore. part of me is glad that we finally have more time to concentrate on our studies (OHNO I'M SUCHA MUGGA =P), the other part just wants to play volleyball for the rest of the year.

btw, i felt that it was my best warmup yesterday...never have i been so focused during a warmup. i think i spiked and received pretty well ytd. yeah, it may just be a warmup, no big deal, but to me it felt really good. oh well, it's hard to describe. like what i've told some of my team mates, sometimes i really wish i had taken up volleyball in secondary school...but i also acknowledge that npcc has made such a deep impact on me that no other cca would have done. in any case, i'm glad that i joined volleyball in jc (:

season might have ended...but the friendship and company doesn't end there! we shall crash juniors' trng and play tog =P

HCVB:

kai
zhi
suff
zhuo
shu
zhang
xinyi
zoe
jaya
jing
shishuang
sarah

hwa chong steady ACE!!!

2007-05-08T16:44:00.000+08:00

lalala.

skipped h3 cuz i was virtually blind at school. tore my last pair of contact lenses in the morning and forgot to bring specs to school ): had to bear with the stinging pain in my right eye during the first hour of school before i discarded the contacts. i had to have clear vision for napfa! if not i'll probably miss the beanbag on the floor during shuttle run. lol. anyway napfa is so...unnecessary. napfa results doesn't determine your state of fitness, really. i don't feel any fitter than last year, yet my results reflect otherwise. well, in any case, we don't have to undergo napfa anymore! though i still have my 2.4km run ahead of me. eeekk.

back to the contact lenses story. come to think of it, i really don't mind having blurry vision if not for the fact that i need to copy notes during lectures. it's such a blessing, especially when you don't have to witness what you don't wish to. or...when you don't wish to engage in eye contact with strangers. haha. okay that kinda sound like a recluse, but i'm not one (:

hmmmm. you're an enigma of sorts. i guess i'll just leave it up to you. i can't be bothered to figure out what you're thinking anymore.

2007-04-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

yo!

it's friday night and i can't be bothered to catch up on my homework.

just read kaysiong's blog about sleep paralysis. i didn't know he experiences it too! i honestly thought that nobody else i know has this problem too...

the first time it happened i was scared out of my wits. then subsequently as i experience the same symptoms on more than 5 occasions, i knew it was not something supernatural. but i never really bothered to find out what exactly it is. until today! now i'm utterly convinced that it is just a sleep disorder and not some otherworldly encounter that befall on me.

http://www.spis.org.uk/

Overview
Sleep Paralysis is the term given to a period of inability to perform voluntary movements. It can happen when you are falling asleep (known as Hypnogogic or Predormital form) or when waking up (known as Hypnopompic or Postdormital form).

Symptoms
Usually, the sufferer of an episode of Sleep Paralysis will report that they felt an inability to move any part of their body whilst falling asleep, or immediately upon waking up - the whole body feels paralysed.The sufferer is fully aware that they are awake, but have great difficulty moving. The experience can produce great anxiety and fear, as the sufferer will struggle to "wake up".

What causes it?
You might not realise, but Paralysis while you are asleep is a normal condition. Your body secretes hormones which relax certain muscles and prevent you from acting out your dreams.
If the hormone kicks in too fast when you are going to sleep, you may feel paralysed although still conscious. The process of waking up is paralysis in reverse, where the hormone doesn’t wear off fast enough as you wake up. Thus, you remain paralysed though conscious.

It is harmful?
No - in the vast majority of cases it is not. The after effects may include a period of fright, followed by a period of restlessness. Occasionally, you may fear going back to sleep by worrying that it may occur again, but this can pass quickly.
Regular sufferers will find it easier to cope with episodes of Sleep Paralysis, as deep down they know that it causes no lasting effects and does pass in time.

How can I break an episode of Sleep Paralysis?
Knowing that you will eventually "wake up" from the episode of Sleep Paralysis, some sufferers will rest in the condition, allowing it to pass naturally. Others will struggle to "wake up" each and every time it occurs. A good way to leave the paralysed state is to breathe in a calm, relaxed fashion and make attempts to move small body parts, such as the eyelids or fingers and toes.

2007-04-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna doze off any moment...

somehow i'm in a pretty foul mood; feeling so darn sleepy even though i haven't done ANY work at all. great, this is just great.

I'M SUCH A BIG FAT SLACKER I OUGHT TO SKIN MYSELF ALIVE. ouch. on second thoughts, maybe not.

i want to curl up in bed, reading a good book and drift away to dreamland. and wake up whenever i want.

as you can see my train of thoughts is totally incoherrent. i wish i can write better. i wish i had taken ballet or music lessons when i was young. i wish...

2007-04-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

hey!

wow wow wow. i haven't updated for so many days! busy with schoolwork and trng these days; besides, nth interesting happened...so...

well maybe the most interesting thing i can think of now is my CHINA DOLL HAIR!!! i swear i have an obsession with haircuts. lol. but somehow i would get very paranoid on the way home from the hairdresser, and when i reached home, i would check my hair in the mirror for thousands of times. not that it makes any difference anyway. the greatest consolation i can probably give myself after a lousy haircut is that it will grow out in no time. hmmmm but generally i love my current hairstyle. just waiting for it to grow a few cm longer (:

will update more often after season. tata!

2007-04-08T16:43:00.000+08:00

i'm not in the mood for words.

me in the background

this logo is cool.

emo-ing.

not emo-ing

the wheel!!

SERENDIPITY*

2007-04-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

this is the song i've been searching for since last year. heard it over the radio some time ago and really liked it. actually, i'm quite sure i've heard it before on the tv advertisements, but i just don't know the title because it wasn't mentioned.

A Lover's Concerto

How gentle is the rain
that falls softly on the meadow
Birds high up on the trees
serenade the clouds with their melodies
Oh，See there beyond the hill
the bright colors of the rainbow
some magic from above
Made this day for us
just to fall in love
You'll hold me in your arms
and say once again you'll love me
And that your love is true
everything will be just as wonderful
Now I belong to you
from this day until forever
Just love me tenderly
and I'll give to you every part of me
Oh，Don't ever make me cry
through long lonely nights without us
Be always true to me
Keep this day in your heart eternally
You hoid me in your arms
and say once again you love me
And that your love is true

it's the most beautiful song i've heard. i'm so happy now that i've found it :D i really hope THE BETTER TOY STORE has this song's handcrank. i would really love to have it...

anw, nada sousou was not as traumatic as i thought it would be. there was no climax throughout the show. even if there was, it wasn't cleverly crafted. still, i quite like it. i teared 4 times during the movie. that's how easily affected i am i guess. i think it's sort of a closure to the troubling week i've had. things kind of happened one after another, some were minor mishaps while others bothered me a great deal. and i'm so so glad that the week's over. well, almost. i'll just treat it as a learning lesson. no point thinking too hard and long over some things when there aren't any answers to be found.

watched step up at home today! edmund helped me burnt it into a cd. thanks!!! i enjoyed it too. it inspired me to learn dance. i will, after As. now As is on top of the priority list.

hmmmm. poor brother ): i wish i can do sth to help him but sadly i can't. i hope he can get out of his dilemma soon.

2007-04-01T11:19:00.000+08:00

Music: Comptine D'un Autre ete : L'ap

i'm in one of those moods again. well, what's new. can't exactly put my feelings into words, i guess i'm just feeling more melancholic than usual. but i know i'm gonna be okay soon. i think i'm getting more optimstic than in the past. just that today i'm not in one of those sunshine days. nvm i will bounce back in a few hours' time (:

zhi, zhang and i wanted to study after trng yesterday but we ended up chatting yet again. there's never enough time for such heart-to-heart talks. you can say it's therapeutic, because in a sense it makes me determined to move on, especially after i've told people about my thoughts. so, i guess i'm free from my apparent dilemma now.

also, i've once again proved that my intuition are unnervingly accurate. wow i should go be a gypsy predicting people's future. wahahaha. too bad i have no inkling about my own future. nvm, just live my life to the fullest as of now. though the only thing i should be thinking about is STUDIES ):

i think we talked so much yesterday that i acquired a headache that refused to go away even before i slept ))))): well but i slept quite early la. like 10pm. i love sundays cuz i can sleep in real late and laze around like a sloth.

Marching Bands of Manhattan-Death Cab for Cutie

If I could open my arms
And span the length of the isle of Manhattan,
I'd bring it to where you are
Making a lake of the East River and Hudson
If I could open my mouth
Wide enough for a marching band to march out
They would make your name sing
And bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings.

I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what was around you
And it is true what you said
That I live like a hermit in my own head
But when the sun shines again
I'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.

Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown [4x]

Your love is gonna drown [4x]
Your love is gonna...

2007-03-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

hello world.

i'm typing this with my eyes half-closed...urgh feeling super drowsy now but i so don't want to sleep at this hour. gonna watch tv later. i reckon chemical equilibria notes is having the drowsy effect on me. reading the calculations is like listening to a lullaby.

hmmmm killer pt on wed made me gain 1-1.5kg!!! zomg. usually ppl lose weight after exercise, while i'm e opposite. i think i gained more muscles, since muscles are heavier than fats. in any case i'm glad that i gained weight (((((: but i don't want to have thunder thighs. i can feel it growing...arghhh. there's trng tmr i'm wondering how i'm going to run and jump when e thighs are still aching like crazy. too much lactic-acid build-up. ANAEROBIC RESPIRATION. yucks. reminds me of bio.

anw, i just remembered a nightmare i had a couple of days ago. nightmates always stick with me because they're so rare, i tend to remember them right down to the most insignificant detail. i dreamt that i was taking gp paper in a classroom, and a certain hwachong teacher was our invigilator. it's funny how i do not know her at all and she appeared in my dream. or rather, nightmare =X then the time was up and we had to hand our scripts. for some reason, e teacher did not want to let us leave e class and kept us in "captivity" for a very long time. i had difficulty breathing as the clock ticked by, as if someone was suffocating me with a pillow. i felt all hot, humid and terrible. i pleaded with e teacher to let us off but she just wouldn't. at that point in time i really thought i was going to die of asphyxia.

and then i woke up abruptly. usually i would forget the last few scenes several moments after i gain consciousness, but this time round e details were so vivid it kind of scares me. luckily it's just a harmless nightmare.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

i believe in my intuitions. i think i have this innate ability to gather inconspicuous clues and evidences to confirm my hypothesis. my guesses are almost always true. so, this time i'm betting my all on it too. i'll waste no more time because there's better stuff out there (:

what a beautiful view, if you nvr realise what is around you.

2007-03-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

Way back into love (Music and Lyrics)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

grand canyon skywalk glass bridge. this is an artist's impression though. not the real thing. i would like to go there someday...it opens on march 28, which is...3 days away! i also want to go Carribean islands where the waters are so crystal clear you can see the seabed. ahhhh i just want to laze around and enjoy life. lol.

2007-03-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

Moon river

Moon river, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style, some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
Wherever you're goin', I'm goin' your way.Two drifters, off to see the world,
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end,
Waitin' 'round the bend,
My huckleberry friend,
Moon river, and me!

i really really really want the trousellier musical box...i know ever wants it too (:

2007-03-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

URGH.

blogger sucks.

either that or internet explorer sucks. maybe both.

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO UPDATE SINCE 10.20 AND EVERYTIME I WANTED TO COPY AND PASTE E THING IT SCREWS UP ON ME. whyyyy )): maybe it's retribution cuz i haven't been updating in ages. hmmmm..

anyway, i'm going swimming tmr!! with me, myself and i. yay! i'm determined to swim 20 laps. serious. need to burn off some fats i've accumulated while studying at home. i take a trip to the kitchen every hour to look for food. haha.

we ATTEMPTED to watch music and lyrics at cine today, but guess what? e film went haywire and couldn't continue from where it stopped, and all of us in the theater had a complementary ticket as compensation. URGH such a spoiler. i really want to finish watching it but at the same time don't want to sit thru the first hour again. hmmm.

wow i think i have increased tolerance for stoning. our class kept stoning at the class bench after bio ppr before we set our foot out of the school. URGHHHH i seriously cannot stand stoning at all. waste of time and brainpower. i think all that we did today is just stoning and lagging (except at the theater), just that we did that at different locations. all the while we were at cine, taking the lift up and down several times, making trips to the foodcourt, blah blah. this builds up my resistance for stoning. but i still dislike wasting precious time like this. oh well. nvm, we will hardly have the chance to do it anymore..haha.

and e girls took neoprints today! basically it's just me, cheryl, ever and pauline ): the rest of them didn't join us ):

heeeheeee. we took more of course. but some not very nice. i think e guys were quite amused by us. it's erm, something like how guys are attracted to dota like we are attracted to taking neos. okay, maybe not a good analogy. i was left 0.0 the whole time when they kept talking about some funny monsters using some weird weapons to attack their opponents. sorry, not my language. haha.

i bought a very cute file from kino that has snoopy hugging a blanket on it! it says: happiness is a warm puppy. SO CUTE! ZOMG. haha. and at the back snoopy lies on a rock. it says: happiness is storing up solar energy. (: i shall buy more of such files. yay.

(:

2007-03-06T22:48:00.001+08:00

I FEEL REALLY LOVED TODAY! ((((((:

i think it's one of my best birthdays so far. i'm so pleasantly surprised that many people remembered my birthday! i didn't exactly expect some people to remember...but they did! which made me very happy indeed.

thank you to squadmates, classmates, zhang, kai, zhi domdomdom my room mate, some ocip people, table partners: grace and hui qing, my mortal sikai and jnrs tingkun and zhuge, and many of my old pri sch and sec sch frens!!! AHHHHHH. i feel totally blessed to have so many people celebrating for me (:

i appreciate all of ur presents, cards and birthday messages! i will keep them and always remember that i have such wonderful people as friends (:

as for the SHOCKINGLY nice present i've received from xlb, ever and pauline, i will TRY to wear it if i have the chance...haha.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

200th post!

2007-03-05T12:47:00.000+08:00

i have nothing much to blog about actually...

all i can say is "I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW!" haha. i wonder what issit that make most people enjoy birthdays. issit the prospect of getting a year older? well for most i'm sure they won't mind having a few years of age off their plate. some can't wait to grow up. i don't know which category i belong to. i just wish this year would pass faster. it's like the emancipation phase for me. and somehow i'm in this "all guys are jerks" mode. hopefully it would pass soon. lol. i'm currently in love with "don't know why" by Norah Jones. it's a pretty old song, released in 2002.

Don't Know Why -Norah Jones

I waited till I saw the sign,
I don't know why I didn't come.
I left you by the house of fun,
I don't know why I didn't come,
I don't know why I didn't come.

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly a way,
'stead of kneeling in the sand,
catching teardrops in my hand.

My heart is drenched in wine.
But you'll be on my mind forever.

Out across the endless sea,
I will die in ecstasy
But i'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone,

My heart is drenched in wine.
But you'll be on my mine forever.

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
My field is empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come.

(:

2007-03-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

tagged by steff.

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: xin yi
Birth date: 6th march. COMING SOON!!!
Current status: ? hungry. haha. VERY.
Eye colour: dark brown
Hair colour: dark brown nearing black
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: Pisces

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE.
Your heritage: Chinese!
Your fears: losing my loved ones, the future. LIZARDS.
Your weaknesses: hmmmm many.
Your perfect pizza: SEAFOOD!

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: where am i?
Your bedtime: depends, i'll try to make it before 12.
Your most missed memory: i have really bad memory -.-

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or group dates: depends if i know e guy well.
Adidas or Nike: i'm torn between two.
Lipton tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate!
Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: nah.
Curse: mildly. only curse explicitly when i'm in rage.
Take a shower: every day.
Have a crush: HAD. it died.
Think you’ve been in love: perhaps
Go to school: duhh.
Want to get married: yupp.
Believe in yourself: most of the time

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Drank alcohol: oh yes, red wine during cny.
Gone to the mall: yeapyeap.
Been on stage: ehh i don't think so.
Eaten sushi: yes!
Dyed your hair: never did

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER?
Played a stripping game: eeeeek.
Changed who you were to fit in: i guess so.

LAYER EIGHT
Age you’re hoping to be married: late twenties, early thirties.

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye colour: hazel!
Best hair colour: natural colour.
Short or long hair: short.

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 minute ago: doing this thingy.
1 hour ago: doing nmr tut...URGH.
4.5 hours ago: getting ready for an afternoon nap.
1 month ago: i can't rmbr.
1 year ago: heaven knows.

LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I love: to be around loved ones.
I feel: very bored and hungry.
I hate: it when i'm misunderstood.
I hide: my deepest emotions from everyone.
I miss: nanyang times!
I need: lots of strength.

2007-02-26T11:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!!!!

I haven't been blogging for a week! goshhhh. and my tagboard is growing cobwebs...haha. i ponned sch today! lol. felt a lil sick after jts yesterday and decided to stay at home today instead. i honestly think i would accomplish more at home rather than listening to lects which i can't comprehend in sch. wellwell. hmmm, alright, let me recount the happenings that occurred last week:

CNY: i just stayed at home and lazed around like a pig. basically didn't venture anywhere else except on chuer, when i went shopping with mum and bro. it was more of an expedition to discover which shops were open on chuer. haha. well, zara was! yay. and i ate xiaolongbaossssss.

SEDUCING MR. PERFECT: watched it on friday with vanessa and cheryl. it's kind of plotless, but who cares? we were there to drool over daniel henney =P and i think the female lead is very beautiful! she would have looked much better with lustrous locks though. somehow the movie confuses me. so in the end, is love a game of power and manipulation? is it the girl's fault that guys ditch her all the time, just because she's "too nice"? well i think it sounds like a lousy break-up line coming from jerks. urgh.

Saturday:had LEAPS in the morning and it was the first one i really paid attention to. okay, maybe the second because i thought that the grooming one last year was really interesting too. so anyway, the people from BrightSparks came over to talk to us about our career direction and interview skills. i have been thinking alot about my future these few days, and when my dad asked me a few days ago which course i want to do in university, i couldn't give him a definite answer. i rank personal interest higher than financial aspects in terms of career choices, but apparently my parents hold opposite views. well, i very much want to earn more than just a living. of course, i have a baseline for the salary. i just cannot imagine myself working without any passion for the job. so what if i earn a five-digit sum per month. all i can say is people have different work values. worse come to worse, i'll just marry someone rich and be a tai-tai. RIGHTTTT. haha.

afterwhich, i joined my team mates and we headed to coach's house! his house has many reflective surfaces which is pretty cool for zi-lian people like us. there's a big mirror right beside the dining table, reflective glass-like surface at the sink area, ceiling-to-floor mirrors in the room and many more. the bathroom in coach's room has TRANSPARENT doors. who would dare to use it!!! zomg. then we played daidi, candoo! and csi: las vegas boardgame. he has many interesting and exotic-looking board games! i think we all enjoyed candoo! the most. it involves drawing and acting, something like pictionary and taboo. kaikai and meimei are good at guessing! haha. somehow i always get funny actions to act out, and ridiculously difficult animals to draw. how is one supposed to draw a dragon?! and act out pin a tail on the donkey?! we all had a good laugh :D some of us went to play CSI: las vegas board game with the guys. it was a pity that i had to leave early and couldn't finish the game ): i want to get my hands on the CSI one! i hope to own it someday. it's so super fun and challenging.

i left early to attend pri sch gathering at billy bombers. a day filled with activities. haha. jason, kenneth, samuel, jian ning, cherlyn, weixin, dorothy and i were the only ones from our class. rather sad. i think some of them couldn't make it
and some probably didn't want to make it. wow i'm amazed at the number of ex-es weixin and cherlyn have. while people like sam, kenneth and i have none to speak of. HOW SAD IS THAT. and i realised how terribly guai i actually am in comparison to them. oh goody-two-shoes me. btw, billy bombers food sucks. i didn't believe it when my bro told me just a week ago, but having tried the roast chicken and chips, it really puts me off. the chips are so soggy and tasteless! URGHHHH. the roast chicken is only mediocre. the only thing decent is probably the milkshake.

ended up at Mind's Cafe near Paradiz and it's one cool place. i definitely want to go there again! it's the perfect place for gatherings and probably those old-time ones because the games can warm everyone up. we played a much more exciting version of heart attack and also SAY WHAT. wish we had tried more games tho. dorothy and i went home while the rest were still there playing. i think my pri-sch friends are a damn crazy and funky bunch of people. hope to see them around more often. heh.

JTS: jts was held yesterday at oxford hotel. was feeling a little ill on the way there, but wasn't feeling as moody as i would be when i fall sick. outings such as jts is an eye-opener to the type of outfits our classmates and juniors would wear. everlyn was dressed like the magician assistant! super cute (: we all wanted to try her white covered heels. and her hairdo made her look like misa in deathnote 2. but she emphasises that she's not as evil as misa. haha. i think all the girls looked good (: alright, and the guys too. yuming had especially dressed up for the occasion, arriving in a striped button-down shirt and tie. good sense of dressing. and foongming looked totally photoshoot-worthy with her chic dress and heels! so gorgeous. she should let her hair down more often and wear contacts. when she appeared with edmund and lih hern, they seemed like family! lih hern being their child. lol. the food was so-so la. i didn't have much of an appetite so i didn't have a second helping. sang quite a bit after dinner. the karaoke was definitely the plus point. haha. having to walk all the way there from bugis mrt station was a killer, especially for those wearing heels. but i think we kind of ignored those who didn't sing ): ohwell. i hope everybody enjoyed it...hmmm.

i can't wait for next tues to come!!! *hinthint.

2007-02-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

just watched a walk to remember and felt like blogging...as expected i cried buckets, especially towards the ending. just like the way i did when i read the book a few months ago. it makes me wonder what are the things you would do for the ones you love, especially near the dying moments...guess we would never really find out till it's time.

this is from the bible, and though i'm not a Christian, i find it so true:

Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.

Love always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.

Love never fails.

2007-02-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

i had a wonderful valentine's day this year (: albeit the fact that cross country was scheduled on the same day, i actually had fun running too! lol. surprisingly, i don't feel as tired as i did last year. i'm already very satisfied with my position, given that my stamina dropped from sec 4 onwards. enjoyed chatting with ALI and elaine before the run. ali is crazy!!! she pronounces the word "gerbera" as "gerberjill". we concluded that she can't pronounce words starting with "ge". lol. so now she's nicknamed as gerberjill! she made me so confused in the end i said gerberjill instead of gerbera too! oh well. ahbengs would pronounce gerbera as "jibehla." lol.

thank you yuming for e orange-red gerberas! it was really sweet of you to give flowers to us girls :D but then the petals kept dropping i had to throw them away before i got home ): i think the spot where i placed my gerberas has manymany petals around it. haha. thank you sikai for e dark pink gerbera too! in the end you didn't manage to overtake the girls and run with us. lol. and meimei! we are so lame we actually bought each other flowers to exchange -.- but nvm, i like to receive flowers!

oh yes, and thanks to EVERYONE who gave me presents today! squadmates, classmates, team mates, juniors etc :D i was totally not paying attention during bio and chem tut la! too excited about vee day alr. haha. luckily we didn't have to attend econ tut cuz of fire drill. we were happily having break when the alarm starts to ring. and denny just bought his food at the instant it rang! hahahahaha. damn suay.

and yay i got to see my ZLKP and huiqi today! haven't seen them for a LOOOOOONNNNGGGG time. they're still are lovely as ever (:

2007-02-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

whoa!

i haven't been blogging for 8days! oh man. time just passes so fast. zoomzoomzoom we're in february already. soon it's gonna be march, and we would be counting the days to blocks, prelims and As.

i have so many things to say but i can't string my thoughts into words. not now anyway. wellwell, valentine's coming! i'm not ultra excited because i don't have a date (duh) yet. hmmm. everything is tentative. but i'm excited about the gift exchange part!!! yay. i haven't finish the presents for squadmates and team mates...i'm super dead =X i shouldn't be feeling so guilty this year cuz im making stuff for my frens. last year i didn't get anything at all!!! except for my angel and mortal. okay i just hope that everyone will like what i'm gonna give them (:

Dark Blue-Jack's Mannequin

I have, I have you breathing down my neck, breathing down my neck
I don't, don't know what you could possibly expect under this condition so
I'll wait, I'll wait for the ambulance to come, ambulance to come
Pick us up off the floor what did you possibly expect under this condition so
Slow down, this night's a perfect shade of

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning and burning down

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning 'till there's nothing but dark blue
Just dark blue

And this flood, this flood is slowly rising up, swallowing the ground
Beneath, my feet. Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition so
I'll swim, I'll swim as the water rises up sun is sinking and now
All I can see is the planets in a row suggesting it's best that I
Slow down this nights a perfect shade of

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning and burning down

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning dark blue

We were boxing, we were boxing the stars
We were boxing (we were boxing) you were swinging from Mars
And then the water reached the west coast
And took the power lines, the power lines
And it was me and you and the whole town underwater
There was nothing we could do
It was dark blue

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning and burning down

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning now there's nothing but dark blue

If you've ever been alone you'll know dark blue
If you've ever been alone you'll know, you'll know

2007-02-04T17:34:00.000+08:00

Santa Monica- Savage Garden

In santa monica in the winter time
The lazy streets so undemanding
I walk into the crowd
In santa monica you get your
Coffee from
The coolest places on the
Promenade
Where people dress just so
Beauty so unavoidable everywhere
You turn
Its there I sit and wonder what am i
Doing here

But on the telephone line i
Am anyone
I am anything I want to be
I could be a super model or
Norman mailer
And you wouldn't know the
Difference
Or would you

In santa monica all the people got
Modern names
Like jake or mandy
And modern bodies too
In santa monica on the boulevard
Youll have to dodge those
In line skaters
Or they'll knock you down
I never felt so lonely
Never felt so out of place
I never wanted something more
Than this

But on the telephone line i
Am anyone
I am anything I want to be
I could be a super model or
Norman mailer
And you wouldnt know the
Difference
On the telephone line I am
Any height
I am any age I want to be
I could be a caped crusader or
Space invader
And you wouldn't know
The difference
Or would you

Bruised- Jack's Mannequin

I've got my things, I'm good to go
You met me at the terminal
Just one more plane ride and it's done

We stood like statues at the gate
Vacation's come and gone too late
There's so much sun where I'm from
I had to give it away, had to give you away

And we spent four days on an
Island at your family's old hotel
Sometimes perfection can be
It can be perfect hell, perfect...

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
And don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised

I lace my Chucks, I walk the aisle
I take my pills, the babies cry
All I hear is what's playing through
The in-flight radio
Now every word of every song
I ever heard that made me wanna stay
Is what's playing through
The in-flight radio, and I
And I am, finally waking up

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
Don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised, yeah

So read your books, but stay out late
Some nights, some nights, and don't think
That you can't stop by the bar
You haven't shown your face here since the bad news
Well I'm here till close, with fingers crossed
Each night cause your place isn't far

And hours pass, and hours pass, yeah, yeah...

Yeah, yeah, she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
And don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised, bruised, bruised

Till the dawn-Drew Sidora

Oh Oh
Oh Oh
Oh Oh
Oh Oh

Ohhhhhhh
Oh no no no

Out on the weekend
Out on the weekend
Out on the weekend
Out on the weekend

Let them in, get the lights, let party begin
Mix a little love, get the mood jumpin
From New York to Miami by ten
I think I'm ready to go
High, every time that we hit up our spot
See everyone in line, and they payin a lot
‘Cept their payin for the night
cuz the drinks are fixed
But the music is free

You want it, you got it
You need it, but you know you gotta have it boy
The music is freein'
(Out on the weekend, Out on the weekend, weekend)

This is for the girls comin' from NYC
I'm feelin' you like yous family
And everybody down from LA to BC
Rockin' to the same old CDs
This is for the kids in the clubs and the street
Talkin' bout you work three deity
Get on the dance floor where the music is free

Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me
Gone until the dawn's gone with me
Where the music is free
Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me
(Out on the weekend, on the weekend, weekend)

[spoken:]
Now all my ladies,
Move it to the front,
show 'em what you got

Ooh, ooh, ooh
Oh, Oh ooh
Oh, Oh ooh
Oh, Oh ooh, ooh, ooh

Fellas?
Move like that!

Oh, Oh (x4)

[Mario:]
And all my ladies say (Ah, Ah)
And all the fellas say (Ah, Ah)
Everybody say (Ah, Ah)
Come dance with me, ohh (Ah Ah)

[Drew:]
And they say we all
Dance like this, we have the men in bed and off
Till there mornin', there we go lettin off
Tyler's droppin onto the table top
Once again, you can shake your thang and there aint no cops

This is for the girls comin' from NYC
I'm feelin' you like yous family
And everybody down from LA to BC
Rockin' to the same old CDs
This is for the kids in the clubs and the street
Talkin' bout you work three diety
Get on the dance floor where the music is free
Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me

This is for the girls comin' from NYC
I'm feelin' you like yous family
And everybody down from LA to BC
Rockin' to the same old CDs
This is for the kids in the clubs and the street
Talkin' bout you work three deity
Get on the dance floor where the music is free

Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me
Gone until the dawn's gone with me
Where the music is free
Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me
(Out on the weekend, on the weekend, weekend)

mass-spamming of songs. haha. went to do cip at boon keng yesterday with the ocip ppl! i really learnt quite abit from the lady whose house we helped to clean. in fact, we didn't have to do much because she just moved in a month ago! we are visiting her next saturday :D listened to her talk about her golden days (she was a dressmaker for 31 years!!! and she made fabulous clothes) and buddhism. and i think alot of what she said made sense. i felt kind of guilty when she kept praising us being helpful teenagers. can't believe that she said mingren very pretty. aigiahnwdheywhisnakl. the exact words were, " ta hen mei." ohmysky. looking forward to see her again next saturday (: we are going to help her put the framed portraits on the wall! yay.

after chem spa is over i would be soso glad. chinese new year is coming soon! wheee~ i just wanna slack at home and pig outtttt. don't think i would be going to m'sia to visit my relatives. so, i would mostly stone at home and probably be out once or twice. nvm, i shall catch up with sleeeep. someone invite me to play mahjong! i want to try my luck this year. haha. valentine's before cny. how lame it is to have cross-country on the same day. you lug ur presents to macritchie, put them on the grass patches and go run. how exciting. hmmm. wonder what i should get for my angel and mortal! my mortal haven't reply me for a super long time....he/she is gonna geddit on v day. HEH HEH HEH.

2007-01-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

helllllo!

haven't update for a loooong time. have been rather busy. oh well. the weather these few days are weirdd. super windy yet sunny at the same time. bizarre. why didn't it rain yesterday, then we don't have to run 3 rounds for pe..zzz. i'm a lazybum. i realised slow jogging is very relaxing and calming. resisting the urge to overtake the person in front of you is difficult, but running at ur own pace can be rewarding. (:

i'm becoming freakingly paranoid. urgh, i wish i can have super powerful ears and listen to what they are saying. hahahaha. hopefully it's not something undesirable.

i've been thinking about alot of stuff lately. random questions would start to pop into my mind during school and i'm having shorter attention spans during lessons. which is really BAD, because i can't understand a thing during lectures and if i still stone and zone out during tutorials i'm gonna fall damn hard during blocks. h3 is becoming more and more -.- with all the spectroscopies getting me confused and bewildered.

man, all that i blog about now are mundane excerpts of my boring life :/

wellwell. at least i have a funky jnr class! i'm waiting for ppl to send me stj photos. haha. i'm looking forward to jts man. i want good food :D

here's my favourite flower:

GERBERA!! but actually i like the orange-red one best. but i can't find a picture of it. rarrr. they are LOVE! haha. i think i like bright flowers more. i also like sunflowers! so pretty. ahhhh, i wanna visit far east flora right now and look at all the beautiful flowers...how great it would be if i can just take a stroll thru the lavender fields..it would not be possible in s'pore of course. maybe australia? hmmmm.

my eyelids are getting heavy, so...BYEBYE!

2007-01-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

TURBO-CHARGED. the theme for this year's orientation campfire!

this is what happened to the watermelon we made the juniors open with a spoon and eat. muahahahaha.

fakeos! we are all imposters except for wilson.lol. and pauline (:

another class picture :D

today is huiqing's birthday! whee~ grace and i celebrated with her in the afternoon. went to eat jap food and swensons' icecream in town. talked about alot of stuff such as people in our school, tv shows etc. grace and i talked about the 852 gang! oh man. i think almost everyone who takes 852 knows one another because we will always meet on the bus. cuz yishun damn laopok mah, only one bus can reach bukit timah, hence we'll take the bus everyday without fail. we are all happening people.

oh, and some people on the bus REALLY have no discretion about what they say on the bus. pls look around and check for possible people u are likely to offend before you say something condescending. it's not as if u're in such hot demand. i wasn't the one who got offended anyway, but i really cannot stand people who don't have any self-awareness at all.

life's as busy as usual. h3 chem tut is getting more and more discouraging. can't wait for the weekend to come, so that i can sleep in late =P

2007-01-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

reached home at 9.30. dead beat after doing 120 blocking moves, 3sets of crunches and leglifts. thank goodness i have no leftover homework to be completed by tmr. basically im waiting for the stupid blogger to upload e campfire photos but obviously it's playing me out.

i really want to sleeeeeep.

fineee. it hates me. so be it. no photos for today.

2007-01-20T14:25:00.000+08:00

i don't quite know what to blog on anymore. all the studying and doing of homework has brought out the inner mugger of me, and i don't know how to enjoy life at this moment. not as if i have the time anyway. reaching home at 8plus every night and doing homework all the way till bed time is taking a toll on me. and it has only been 3 weeks of sch! sigh. such is the life of a j2. i think i really shouldn't have bit off more than i could chew. but i don't want to give up without even trying hard. i just hope i can cope with all the commitments i have now. that would probably mean i have to make certain sacrifices, such as hanging out with friends after school.

studying is good, really. it keeps me occupied such that i don't have the spare time to think about senseless stuff. i thought i wouldn't be able to, but eventually i had gotten over certain matters. absence makes the heart grow fonder doesn't apply for me. the less i see, the less affected i get. at least i'm much more sure of the direction it's heading now.

on a side note, i'm going shopping next friday! it's probably the ONLY highlight of the coming week :D i'm deprived of innocent pleasures of window shopping ): fridays shall be the official day for hanging out. since it's the ONLY available day. and it's not the whole afternoon s'more. only after 5.30pm. oh well. gotta make do with the little free time i have.

randomness strikes: I LOVE MY FRIENDS! esp charlie's angels, classmates, squadmates and team mates :D i see you people almost everyday, and you all make school so much more bearable. i like the way my class can chill out after sch by playing cards and talking, while also able to study tog in the library. esp how we teach one another in studies. special thanks to zeqi, the chem olympiad gold metallist who made h3 tut qns seem so easy (: i also like how the vb team train hard tog, be it outdoor trng or pt. now i have zoe to pei me take bus at the bus stop opp hc (:

am getting back to nitrogen cmpds. CIAO!

2007-01-15T16:35:00.000+08:00

jaya and zoe! it's a pity that the photo 3 of us took together didn't turn out good.

me and ever acting cute >.<

IMPOSTERS! we hid in a secluded corner of the canteen to take photos. -.-

weiwei/meimei and i! against the backdrop of my classmates. heehee.

sad, my cam died b4 i could take MORE photos! urgh. so ppl, send me da photos! ever u can send me e pics in ur phone. hahaha.

2007-01-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

really quite lazy to update. oh well.

here's a very very nice song:

"I Do (Cherish You)"

All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Til my dying day

[Chorus]

chanced upon it on someone's blog. so sweet!

campfire was quite fun, except that ALL OF US MISSED THE APOLLO DANCE!!!!!!!! what the heck. can't believe we missed the number one hot and sexy dance. with xlb, joanne and alicia in it. urgh. but nvm, here's the link for the dancE!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rH15g2epNjQ

i think i enjoyed myself much more this year. it's probably cuz 71 got a whole lot closer and funkier. i mean, obviously right. last year we were all blurblur. we got pretty high during the song and dance sessions! it's so heartwarming to gather in a circle (albeit a flat one) and sing college songs together. it's a rare sight to see some of our guy classmates sing. lol.

after the campfire, we had the traditional watermelon game! the catch is to open the watermelon with a metal spoon and gobble up ALL its contents in 1min. before that, they gotta stand on the table, ALL 26 OF THEM and shout us a cheer. urgh, we let them off too easily cuz we didn't make them walk on the table. dohhfjdkiuwirjka. i think we had a greater challenge last year. oh well. nvm. oh, one jnr performed a magic trick for us! it was reallly awesome man. go 71's class blog and look at the fork! but all magic tricks are scams. all fake one. i want to see a REAL cool magic trick someday :D like the one in The Prestige.

hmmmm. oh ya, ever and i borrowed stnic's and sc uniform to wear on campfire day! lol. we refused to wear hongzi. dunno why we didn't think of wearing pe tee, but nvm. and so we took a lot of photos! wheee~ shall upload them together w e photos taken with the class.

MY CAM DESERVES TO BE CONDEMNED. the batt runs out extremely fast. urggghhhh why so laopok one ): i need a new cam. rarrrr.

my entire week ahead is blown off. welcome to the reality of j2 life.

2007-01-07T21:23:00.000+08:00

wheeee~

so yesterday was coach's big day! cuz it's his wedding! haha. zhang and i met earlier at taka to buy the CASSEROLE POT (it's not a WOK for goodness' sake!) luckily we didn't decide to lug it home on friday, if not either of us would have died carrying it. it wasn't light okay! luckily changboon and zhen wei helped us carry it to the hotel. yay, thank you!

and everyone in the girls' team looked really pretty yesterday! wahahaha. so we waited for everyone to turn up and walked to the hotel! forgot what's the name alr, oops. as usual, wedding receptions nv fail to make me feel touched. was overwhelmed by the singing and little stories shared by the pastor. almost cried but i didn't want to embarass myself. haha. may they have a happy and blissed marriage! they're going to new zealand for honeymoon! the scenery there must be breathtaking.

the lunch reception was wonderful! carnivore zhang loves the yummy chicken. i like the blueberry cheesecake the most! too bad i didn't get to eat e siewmai ): they were all gone before i could get my hands on them.

what happens when a grp of girls gather together? why, photo-taking of course!!! haha. we took a whole load of photos the entire time. haha. zhang, chenzhuo, zhi and i even went to the end of the hall to take photos! using the timer. haha. so pro right. and of course, we took photos with the beautiful bride and suave bridesgroom! woohoooo.

zhang, me, zhi and chenzhuo!

j1s and j2s (:

VOLLEYBALL GIRLS' TEAM ;D

clockwise from right: kai, me, zhang, shu and zhi!

after that, we walked to marina square to play pool! ming, shu, sophia, jaya, cheryl and laytin left first. can u imagine playing pool in skirts. hahaha. and walking all the way from st andrew's cathedral to marina square in our heels and flats which gave our painful blisters and squashed feet. it took us quite long to complete a game of pool! cuz we are almostly noobs. except zhi and zhang! i think. actually everybody else was playing q well except me ): e first game i couldn't get any ball in! grrrrr obviously lady luck wasn't on my side.

i think in the 3rd or 4th game we were all super unlucky in getting the first ball in. haha. oh well. then, we decided to leave cuz we were getting rather sian-ed. haha. i, the shopping queen went to diva and bought a necklace! 50% off leh, how to resist! haha. in the end i got scolded by my mum for buying too many things recently. oh well.

everybody else went home except zhang, zhi and i. wooo! we went to kfc and had a nice chat (: i think we sat there for a really long time cuz e person wanted to clear our table for us, i.e. chase us out in a polite sense. haha. we talked about alot of stuff, such as school, family, friends etc. and zhi offended both of us! hahahaha. it's like we realised qualities which we never knew we possessed. for example, they commented that i laugh louder than i speak! which is to say, i'm very soft-spoken. haha. i really don't think so. but nvm, I WILL TRY TO SPEAK LOUDER FROM NOW ONWARDS. and that zhang has e wild look. no lor, zhang i don't think so! haha.

and we went to esplande rooftop to continue our conversation! i <3 the atmosphere there. so serene and peaceful. (: hope we can have more of such talks in the future! i think we would. heh. that's all, tata guys!

2007-01-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

It doesn't feel like a new year to me. It's so odd to think of myself as a senior. SENIOR. sounds so old. and mature. hmmm. can't wait to see how our class juniors will be like! hope they're interesting. haha. i need some entertainment source so that i don't go crazy mugging. this year is truely a mugging year. better not let myself have the chance to regret anything.

like what yuntian said, i suddenly realised that i've got quite a number of friends in sch. classmates, team mates, squadmates, ocip frens and ex-classmates. haha. then during break in the canteen would bump into many people. it's a heartwarming feeling. that's what i like about school anyway. probably the ONLY thing i like.

oh and my class has a new CT cum gp teacher! miss lim ai hua. she's really quite cool and funky. and she has a pretty sound sense of humour. wow, it has been a long time since i've met such teachers. haha. okay maybe not so long afterall, since derek tan is my sec 3 bio teacher and he's super funny too. i hope i can do better in gp this year. well, i need to la. miss lim says it's all about technique. hmmmm.

anyway, here's the conversation of the day:

pauline: how does it feel to like someone?

(someone in another convo): full of shit!

me: that was a good answer.

(that person): what the hell?!?!

beat this. hahahaha. we were sitting on the benches at far east plaza and talking about random stuff while it happened. that person sounded like he was really answering pauline's question. so we were like WHAT THE SHIT?! and i said that was a good answer. haha. cheryl heard the what the hell?!?! but i didn't. hahahahaha.

better enjoy this short period of honeymoon-ing while it last. come march it's gonna be BUSYYYYY. tata!

2007-01-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

my first post in 2007 :D

2006 had truly been an eventful year for me. Those who were always close by my side would know that i didn't have a great start in the beginning of last year. much less; it was rather disastrous. i didn't know i couldn't manage change. or rather, it was too drastic for me to bear. bouts of depression struck me senseless and i became a stranger to myself. tried so hard to pull myself from that abyss. and luckily i finally did so, with the help of my friends ((: many thanks to cheryl and pauline who became my two best friends in class this year. i'm really so thankful that you two were there for me, always, whether sunshine or RAIN. i cannot imagine what would happen to me if not for you two. lovelove <3

not forgetting old time buddies of course xP my squadmates might not be always there when i want to see them, but every gathering feels so warm and fuzzy, because i will once again realise that there will always be a special place for them. and the recent alumni games day just proved that fact. there would not be another grp of friends whom i can bare my soul to. with sqms, i can be my true self.

also, my volleyball teammates. thank you for all the random but funny moments you've brought to my life. felt especially close during the competition season, when we would write encouraging letters to one another and exchange gifts. though i felt kinda of distant to the team initially, as i crave for the closeness my squad share, i realised it wouldn't be the same. now i feel much much closer (: we must work hard for next year! and i mustn't slack ;D

and to the ocip shanghai team! i would say the trip is probably one of the most memorable events in my life. i'm really so glad to have met all of you, all 24 of you. i also learnt alot from the kids in the village school, who taught my lessons of happiness and joy. and all those crazy nights of mass convos are fresh in my mind. such spontaneity and enthusiasm amongst us. which is why i really like this grp of people. we rawk! and let us please not dao each other in school okay!

i hoped and i prayed. but some things are just not meant to be. happiness is not something to be expected. it comes visiting once in a while, and we all ought to savour every moment of it when it does so. the next time it happens, i will not hide like a coward and wish for a hole to swallow me up. i would be brave and fight for what i deem as right and worthy of mine. i would not be afraid to get hurt in the process.

suddenly i feel so old. seventeen. gosh. in about 2 mths i would be eighteen. legal to buy booze and cigarettes. get to enjoy more movie choices with the emergence of m18 shows. and many more regulations broken. but does it really matter? in any case, hope my eighteenth year would be one of wonderful memories (:

wow i sound so..eh..prim and proper. haha. oh well. goodbye 2006, hello 2007!

2006-12-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

2006-12-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

another entry. haha.

today was the super impromptu ocip x'mas lunch! ooops it was so out-of-the-blue because a few of us were chatting online yesterday night (yes, on x'mas eve, i know) and lamenting how sad it would be to stay at home for x'mas. AND SO, we decided to meet up for buffet lunch! we did not decide the details until today morning. sorry it was THAT impromptu. we'll have another outing which would be WELL-PLANNED ((:

in the end, we ate at swensons instead. thanks to you-know-who. haha. nah, actually it's okay la. it doesn't really matter where we eat. we had some brisk walking exercise before we FINALLY gave in to swensons, so i guess it prepared us for some heavy lunch. lol. oh and we saw qianlei and gwen! they went to kbox. sad that they couldn't join us )):

poor jonny didn't have alot of cash, so he had no choice but to order cheesy egg=kid's meal=small portions=getting niao-ed by all of us. oh well. and e waitresses had to emphasize KID'S MEAL. haha. oops. nvm lah, e alphabet thing looks pretty appealing. yuntian and i shared crawfish pasta and chicken baked rice! wheee~~ super yummmmmmmmy. e cheese zomg is heavenly.

then, all of us shared Earthquake, which ultimately became Flood when we passed it to those sitting at the other end. oh, and mingren joined us! just in time for icecream.

guess where is our next destination??? THE ARCADE OF COURSE. junquan and yuntian left subsequently, leaving e guys, xinwei and i. jiahao and i went to walk around, so did maodun and xinwei. i've never really explore marina square before. today i suddenly realised it's actually v big! im ulu. haha. it's a great shopping place. oh ya, and jiahao wore contact lenses today! yay should wear more often then we'll get used to it. haha.

yuntian, jiahao and i took pictures with the very pretty x'mas decorations! will upload e pictures soon cuz something's wrong w blogger again. bleah.

hmmm. oh we went back and they were playing pool! hahahaha. jonny and lg are e "coaches" cuz they're v pro! then, jm, kaiern, mr and mao played. i forgot who teamed up with who.haha. well, from an observer's point of view, the verdict is that pool pros are playing at the table beside us. hahaha. i think they had completed 3games while we only finished 1. or maybe even MORE. haha.

yup. then jiahao and i joined jonny and lg for the next round! we are both noobsss. haha. he claimed that he is more noob than me. so you see, noobs cannot pair up tog because we will get thrashed by pool kings aka jonny and lg. lol. so eventually, jiahao and jonny were 1 team, while lg and i were another.

and we won! yay. lg too pro liao. haha. oh ya, there was this triangular relationship between e red-striped, orange and black ball. we definitely cannot risk getting e black ball into the pocket, so we avoided them at all cost. but, when we were left with only e red-striped one, we had no choice!! haha. wah i was so afraid that i would hit e black one in too. luckily i didn't! and so we won e game.

after that, we left the arcade, with kaiern and jonny disappearing within seconds. i went home for dinner and the rest continued to shop ard.

and so concludes our impromptu but still q fun x'mas lunch.

MERRY X'MAS!

2006-12-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

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RAwr. I DISLIKE BLOGGER. I WAS LOADING PICS HALFWAY THEN *POOF EVERYTHING WENT MISSING. darnnnn it.

anyway, i'm finally back from m'sia! after being stranded for 3 whole days. but i must really thank my lucky stars that i got back safely. (((:

i really enjoyed my stay in cameron highlands. e weather there can be likened to shanghai's, though e latter is cooler. anyhow, i've decided i like temperate countries. lol. i used to think i cannot survive in those countries cuz i'm averse to cold. but now i'm kind of accustomed to it. yipee~ my next aim is to witness snow. lol.

let the pictures tell the story

anthurium apartments. the place i stayed at in cameron highlands.

where all the pretty flora lies.

it has red leaves! zomg. haha. i donno what it's called.

orchid ((: issit vanda miss joaquim? hmmm.

my 2 v lovable cousins and i.

2006-12-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm. having a slight headache now. it must be from the filing of subject notes just now. i spent 2 whole hours filing 4 subjects' worth of notes. i have a love/hate relationship with tidying up my room. love: it calms me down whenever i'm feeling cranky/edgy. i would feel tons better after i clear the mess on the table. hate: the dust makes me SNEEZE and WHEEZE ): and sometimes i get throbbing headaches. rahhh. like NOW.

anyways, ezuojuzhiwen is really funny! i like. haha. jiang zhi shu (played by joecheng) doesn't need to study for exams and he can easily top the school -.- i don't believe anyone has such kingbar brains. even zeqi needs to revise for his tests. lol. but yeah, i really wouldn't mind having an IQ200. who would?! okay im talking rubbish here. blame the heacache.

i'm leaving for m'sia tmr morning!!! i'll be going to my grandma's house, then to cameron highlands. never been there before. hope the weather will be cooling (((: will be back on 21dec! yay. don't miss me!!! muahahaha. so EGO.

2006-12-13T11:43:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling better now (:

thanks to those who showed concern, i really appreciate it.

i guess i shall just leave those thoughts at the back of my head and not let them haunt me.

we're having ocip mass convos almost everyday now. or issit everyday?? lolllll. sigh, don't know what will happen when sch reopens. i'm praying hard that we won't drift apart but that's just inevitable. oh well. we should at least organise a gathering during every school holiday! that way we wouldn't drift too far apart. or we can have mugging/studying sessions together. meanwhile, we should have more outings during e hols. it's soon ending ))):

went to esplanade library yesterday to study with pauline darling and cheryl dear. yipee! i like the atmosphere there; it's conducive for doing work. shall go there more often. and we would be have another cooking party at pauline's house on friday! gonna make delicious cupcakes! lol. hope we'll have no accidents such as PSI 1000 in our last cooking party. haha. actually it's not a party cuz it consists of only 3 ppl but who cares =P mitch the pig went australia so he would miss our party again. awww.

it's called a-cute invasion.

2006-12-11T10:22:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired of it all.

excitement, disappointment, joy and confusion.

i've been on a rollercoaster ride, trying to figure out what i am supposed to do, how should i steer my direction, so that i don't get hurt.

looks like nobody can give me an answer.

i'm afraid to know the truth; yet, i need to.

there's no ending to this, it keeps going around in circles.

all these senseless wondering. how i wish somebody would just tell me what to do.

whoever said growing up is easy.

2006-12-10T18:41:00.000+08:00

KBOXING at paradiz centre.

the oh-so-pretty pink x'mas tree outside The Cathay!

smitten <3

2006-12-10T10:50:00.000+08:00

i'm currently smitten with oldies :DDD xlb's saying that i'm adopting charlie's taste of music, which can be worrying xD but some oldies are really sensational! such as bohemian rhapsody:

Bohemian Rhapsody-Queen

Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide, No escape from reality
Open your eyes, Look up to the skies and see,
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go, Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me, to me

Mama, just killed a man, Put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life had just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooh, Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come
Sends shivers down my spine, body's aching all the time
Goodbye, ev'rybody, I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, ooh, I don't want to die
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouche, Scaramouche, will you do the Fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very fright'ning me
(Galileo.) Galileo. (Galileo.) Galileo, Galileo figaro
Magnifico. I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family
Spare him his life from this monstrosity
Easy come, easy go, will you let me go
Bismillah! No, we will not let you go
(Let him go!) Bismillah! We will not let you go
(Let him go!) Bismillah! We will not let you go
(Let me go.) Will not let you go
(Let me go.) Will not let you go. (Let me go.) Ah
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
(Oh mama mia, mama mia.) Mama mia, let me go
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me, for me, for me

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh, baby, can't do this to me, baby
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta here

Nothing really matters, Anyone can see
Nothing really matters
Nothing really matters to me

Any way the wind blows

First heard of this song in Pride and it got me interested! but i didn't know the title of the song so didn't manage to hear the full version then. Now i've got the whole album in my iTunes, courtesy of yuntian's cd. THANK YOU XIAOTIANTIAN! hahaha. The song is composed of six distinct sections - introduction, ballad, guitar solo, opera, rock, and an outro. it's so unusual, it caught my attention the first time i heard it. but i guess not everyone likes it, cuz xlb says she hates it like crazy! oh well ))): to each his/her own. go listen to it on youtube and decide for yourself!

yesterday was loads of fun ((: had meeting and kbox session with the shanghai people. i think all of the girls can sing well! esp yuntian with her sensational voice that does not require the mike at all. and her range is back! wheeeee~ don't know if jonny's one is back though.

QUEEN can sing very well too! he was so humble about it. haha. could remember how he tried to make the duet between jonny and jiawei work, cuz they could barely coordinate! haha. i think they're just unfamiliar with the song bah. yeah and jonny pek kept spamming the list with laopokpok english songs, and then skipping to the next song after he sang halfway, cuz couldn't continue. zzz. lol. still, some of the english songs were enjoyable. e.g. DESPERADO! heh.

then there were people who refused to sing, e.g. lg and junquan. it must have been a torture for them. haha. imagine paying for something you didn't want to do. at least they were good sport to come and join us. haha.

after kbox, some people left as it was rather late already, close to dinnertime. wensi and some guys went to play pool, while jiahao, peishan and i played bishi bashi. jiahao the coach trained peishan and i to become not-so-noob bishi bashi players. lol. we must play more okay!!! then can improve on our zhamming skills. haha.

in the end, it was down to 3 of us, jonny, lg and wensi. we went for dinner at ps foodcourt and then headed home.

fun aside, SCHOOL is looming near. which reminds me of HOMEWORK i've barely touched. SIANNNN.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

how do you know when to give up? i'm so stuck in this dilemma of mine.

2006-12-08T19:43:00.000+08:00

Desperado --Eagles

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet

Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get

Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're losin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late

johnny's favourite song. lol. soon becoming one of my favourite!

I Will Follow You Into The Dark--Death cab for cutie

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

2006-12-07T11:23:00.000+08:00

Shall post the only picture where everyone can be clearly seen ((:

Local cip comm meeting portrait!

The meeting was kind of a failure cuz we kept going off the point. Still, it was great to meet up with them after e last outing :D And i reallyreallyreally (x100) cannot wait for kbox on saturday! everyone please don't pangseh and just GO! even if you feel that you cannot sing, or you've never heard yourself sing before. just go for the experience and company ALRIGHT! heh. and remember to bring lots of water, snacks cuz we would be singing from 11-7.

been staying up late these few days chatting with shanghai ppl. peishan, me, jiahao and lg are the owls of e ocip team. haha. i'm the junior owl cuz i'm e most noob one. always the first to leave the convo and sleep. zzz. nvm, i will train my nocturnal abilities and be promoted to senior owl.

had trng yesterday from 2-6. FOURHOURS. wasn't as hiong as monday's one, cuz we didn't do PT(yay!) and played match instead. jiaolian's inviting us to his wedding reception on JAN6! woohoo! can enjoy good food and dress up ((: oh but i don't know if it would clash with the local cip we're gonna do, cuz we decided to schedule it during the 1st week of term 1 next year. hope that it wouldn't! cuz i really want to go for both events. cannot wait to see jiaolian in his suave wedding suit.

Your Style is 1970s

Bell bottoms, platform shoes, wide belts, and tons of polyester.
You've got a bit of that hippie vibe going on, but you're hip enough to pull it off!

What Decade Matches Your Style?

You are a New Age Girl!

You're bright, opinionated, and dedicated to changing the world.
Even if it's one hybrid car at a time, you do you part to make things better.
In fact, you may be so busy with your causes that you have little time for love.
Take an extra yoga class or two, and you just might meet New Age Guy!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

You Are Furry Boots

They're not just boots. They're your dancing shoes!

What Kind of Boots Are You?

some mindless quizzes i did when i get too bored. lol.

2006-12-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

wow. this is so cool! found it on maid tian's (ooops =P) blog. hmmm. really wonder what/who i will fall in love with. -shrugs-

and i have finally started on my hw!!! it took me a good 2HOURS to complete half a carboxylic tut -.- how efficient. hohoho. the amount of hw i gotta clear by the end of hols is really unnerving. judging by the time i took to complete a relatively easy tutorial, i would probably never finish the work on time. oh well. good luck! to myself and everybody else who's suffering the same fate as me.

i still miss those times in shanghai. believe or not, i dreamt about ocip shanghai a few nights in a row! every now and then, i would relive those days over and over in my mind. i'm rather surprised that the trip would have such a deep impact on me. or any event, for that matter. i mean, i'm the highly forgetful sort, so i tend NOT to remember much about anything unless it is really that significant. am i gonna to look back on those days, in my thirties, and wallow in nostalgia? i ain't got no idea. perhaps i will..

2006-12-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

harlow :D have been rather lazy to update. hmmm. anyways, went to national library with weiwen today! was inspired by her to check out on university courses and scholarships. i feel like a clueless fly, not knowing which direction to head to. that aside, i found 7 great books to fill me in this dec! haven't been reading since shanghai trip and i feel really inadequate.

next week's gonna be a fulfilling one for me. FINALLY, i'm starting on my homework! with xlb and pauline, i'm pretty sure i'll complete them on time :D and then i'll have my trngs (at long last)and i'm going out w suwan!! on friday. i really hope nothing crops up out of the blue. we've been wanting to meet since the end of promos.

national library has a vast collection of books! Found a book which was featured in Time. The Divide by Nicholas Evans.

"And after he had made all the other creatures of the earth, only then did the Creator make man and woman. And he fashioned their bodies that they should know each other's flesh but their souls that they should forever be strangers. For only thus divided might they find their true path."
Calvin Sashone, Creative Mythology

i bought this cool-looking mickey mouse handphone pouch for my iPod (((: cuz i'm gonna use my current one for my phone, as it matches my current wallet. i'm a person who buys things to match, according to weiwen. haha.

Okay shall do the quiz on wensi's blog.

#1. Are you a chinese or english freako?
Ehhh. i think more of chinese tho i like english songs as well.

#2. If time is going to stop; what would you possibly do for that time?
i'd probably spend the time w my friends and family.

#3. Prefer a playpool or playground?
playpool! i love water :D i feel like a fish in the waters. lol.

#4. Do you usually gossip others; or being gossiped?
gossip others! lol. i wouldn't know if i'm being gossiped anyway. and i don't have anything for ppl to gossip about =P

#5. Do you like simple or complicated stuff?
hmmm. simple. but complicated stuff sets ur mind into e thinking mode, which can be really enriching.

#6. Do you tackle numbers better; or alphabets?
alphabet! much more sophisticated, in my opinion.

#7. What makes you pissed off?
interruption and know-it-alls.

#8. How's your childhood?
can't really remember, but i know i cried alot =X

#9. Do you have inspiration without perspiration?
i think i do but it's kinda rare. hard work is still the way to go :D

#10. Do you think 24hours is too long, short or just okay?
depends on what you're doing, no?

#11. Would you judge people by their appearance?
yeah most of the time, but i'm trying to look beyond their eyes.

#12. What is attractive in your eyes?
a kind and loving heart.

#13. Do you like day or night, explain why?
hmmm. depends on what i'm doing lorh.

#14. Do you treasure stuffs that you own, or have insatiable desires?
i treasure the stuff i own, and i also have desires, but i try not to let greed take over.

#15. If your computer hanged up; with a long long document not being saved; how would you react?
hmmmm. i think word has e function which retrieve e doc right?? haha. well i'll type it again lorh..

#16. Do you believe in miracles? Or was it longed predestined?
Sometimes i choose to believe in miracles. I think it's harder for humans to believe in miracles than for miracles to happen.

#17. Do you often tend to forget the past; or trying hard to do so?
I forget the angry times, but try ever so hard to forget the sad times.

#18. In your mind, why colours are out there?
hmmmmmmmm

#19. Have you ever pitied those who are real pitiful; and shed tears for them; etc?
yup..i do.

#20. Describe yourself as in attitude?
i think i have dual personalities-there are times i feel really extroverted and social, and days when i'm like a hermit and hides in my own shell. i think i'm rather easygoing but a little paranoid.

#21. Do you suddenly lose the grasp of hope to survive as yet?
Nope! YAY.

#22. Give 3 advantages when you get to live?
1. you experience the wonders of life such as
2. love, and
3. pain

#23. What is your ambition in life?
i hope i'd look back on my life when i'm old and greying, marvelling at all the mistakes i've made, because they're part of my life journey. and also to find my perfect fit.

#24. Do you believe in horoscope etc?
yeap. i do. not entirely though.

#25. Describe music in your life.
it's the quintessential part of me.

#26. Which country would you like to go; when you can afford it?
ITALY! heh.

#27. What do you think blogging is about?
it's about expression of thoughts and sharing of joy,woes etcetc.

#28. What kind of style are you trying to get hold of?
hmmmm. i've no idea actually.

#29. When you fail a test, how will you react?
i'll mull over it for a while then be a happy girl again!

#30. Pass this to 8 friends; for them to get it done.
wei li, jaclyn, jun quan, pauline dear, suwan and any random ppl who reads my blog lah. ahaha.

2006-11-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

THOSE DAYS

pavilion.

team b's completed mural

we got our jeans wet after kneeling on the ground -.-

peishan's favourite photo ((((:

OCIP SHANGHAI NOV 2006 alwaysandforever.

2006-11-27T15:34:00.000+08:00

MEMORIES

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all e photos are koped from peishan's and elaine's camera cuz my camera went cuckoo in shanghai. it couldn't stand e cold weather and died on me -.-

yay yay! i'll put up more photos soon!

2006-11-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

i'm back from OCIP Shanghai 2006!

am currently downloading the photos from peishan's webshots. i think it's gonna take me ages to download everything.

guess what?? im suffering the withdrawal symptoms already! it feels incredulously hot
here in Singapore. was used to shanghai's cool weather.

i miss the late nights spent playing polar bear, ban-luck, some "passport" game sae kia introduced, performing and watching magic tricks.

i miss the adorable kids who would swarm around us for hugs and photos taken.

i miss the adrenaline rush whenever i take letters from my mortal's envelope.

i miss domdom's OHMYYYYGOSHHHH and her contagious laughter. [though i do not miss her reluctance to take photos w us ))):]

i miss having meals with the whole team.

i, as the hailed shopping queen undoubtedly miss shopping, esp at the super cheap place where we bought our coats and whatnots =D

i miss taking 120281092749583490 photos with everyone.

i miss exhaling into the air to form a cloud of mist.

i miss the process of learning how to blow a bubblegum from dear qianlei and dom.

i can go on and on with the list, but i shall stop here, because most importantly i miss THE COMPANY during those 10days. really hope we would keep in contact after the local cip thing ends. WE SHOULD! wensi and i were suggesting sleepover/chalet so that we can play polar bear again. wahaha.

i will always remember you guys...

chun kang: newcastle fanatic who lurks in the hallway, looking like a potential angel-suspect.

dom: the super kind and generous room mate who doesn't like to have her pics taken ):

gwen: comedienne who nv fail to brighten up my days in shanghai with her antics =D

jianmin: my very nice mortal who ate a LIVE PRAWN and managed a poker face while doing so.

kai ern: reticent guy who carries a touch for AHEMAHEM! shan't elaborate =p

jiahao: Big Friendly Giant/Queen who willingly tag along e girls to shop.

jia wei: fellow sista and yuntian's nemesis who's totally into shopping! also my angel and mortal =D

joanne: my super duper innocent and nice class mate who's v popular w e kids :)

algernon: avid photographer who's v aware of cameras around him =P considerate guy who would not hesitate to lend a helping hand.

pei shan: my fellow late-night partner who's crazy over WU ZUN!

elaine: our very responsible leader who's easily amused

xi an: witty and composed, who can adapt well to situations.

wufan: the girl w the pleasant voice who got her hair painted ):

wensi: little red riding hood who's left side of the face is more photogenic. LOLLLL.

mingren: the self-proclaimed SAE KIA who wears contacts everyday (NOT!!)

xinwei: always bickering with jiawei and has crushes on 5 guys on the trip. (fake one lah)

qian lei: EGGMAN! my bubblegum master who loves doing the lan bao bao action.

yuntian: the one with sexy voice and inspiration for THE YUNTIAN DANCE.

mao dun: watches tennis in the hotel room and poor guy who got quite sick during the last few days ):

jun quan: fellow sista who always gang up w jia wei to bully xinwei.

yushan: HAO MAI! super cool when she wears a cap. super adorable when she's excited!

grace: someone who looks perpetually calm. japan lover!

jonathan: KILL THE BED PEOPLE! "piss diao liao" fellow magician who managed to con ppl with his jian magic tricks. haha.

kim min: abit blur but very cute girl who shared mala ajisen ramen w me! and our concoction of mala ramen and sake is super poisonous =X

2006-11-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

hey all!

i'm leaving later for shanghai~ gotta reach airport at 10.30pm. wahhhhh. very excited now. haha.

can't wait for time to pass!

don't miss me, people!

<3 be back in 10 days' time =D

2006-11-12T09:05:00.000+08:00

pretty early now isn't it!

rahh i was too tired to go online yesterday nite. slept from 9plus to 8plus this morning, waking up during interludes to eat fruits, brush teeth etc. WHY AM I ALWAYS SO TIRED!

i'm glad that the OCIP team got kinda closer thru e interaction and lunch yesterday. LOL. esp the sisterhood which includes the GIRLs and JIAWEI and JUNQUAN. long story, but quite funny lah. And, guess what? i met my mother and her friend @ somerset ytd! i think they called my name a tad too loud. -.- what a coincidence man. tho i sort of had this feeling that i would bump into them somewhere.

i'm gonna pack for my trip later in the day. i'm kinda afraid to start cuz it's mind-boggling. hope i won't forget to bring anything! yay.

You Are Lilac

You are a very innocent and pure person. Ethics matter to you.
Your friends consider you a great listener, and you often play therapist to your friends.
You are good at drawing out truths in conversation, however painful they may be.
Non judgmental and patient - people feel like they can tell you anything!

What Color Purple Are You?

i'm innocent and pure???? haha.

You Are Cameo

You are understanding and very empathetic.
You don't tend to have acquaintances. Everyone is your friend.
And all of your friends tend to be friends. You have a knack for bringing very different people together.

What Color Orange Are You?

You are Ocean Blue

You're both warm and practical. You're very driven, but you're also very well rounded.
You tend to see both sides to every issue, and people consider you a natural diplomat.

What Color Blue Are You?

You Are Ruby Red

You are warm and inviting - yet a little wild and outrageous.
Well aware that you have a dual personality, you work it as much as you can!
You like for people to be comfortable around you, but not at the expense of you stealing the limelight.
Popular and well known, you make friends easily. You have your big personality to thank for that.

What Color Red Are You?

i'm not so sure about the wild and outrageous part. lol.

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.
Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.
People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.
But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

What Color Green Are You?

wahhh. hmmmm. not very true leh.

2006-11-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

Wonderwall--Oasis

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me? And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

2006-11-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

yoyo!!

am kinda lazy to elaborate on the cooking party the charlie's angels had on TUESDAY, but here are the highlights:

PSI 1000! and we left poor pauline in the smoky kitchen, stranded and all alone..but she seems pretty happy with that! lolllll. The heat was obviously too much for the butter to bear. it melted into a chaoda-ed brown liquid which was ultimately GROSS. and before we knew it, thick smoke engulfed the kitchen.

da ingredients for shepherd's pie =D yumyum.

our masterpiece: SHEPHERD'S PIE!!! i bet your mouth is watering now =P while waiting for cheryl to get the eggs for our dessert, we placed the raisins on top of the shepherd's pie to make a smiley face! bored lah. haha.

This is our very delicious rum and raisin bread pudding! I couldn't taste the rum in the end -.- too little to get us drunk. ):

we ate the rest up!

XLB I'M SO SORRY I DESTROYED YOUR DOOR ): i went into xlb's room to change and forgot to check if the door was still locked, then WHAM the wind blew the door tight shut and it was locked from inside =X rahhhhhh. felt so bad cuz pauline couldn't meet her mum in the end and i was late for squad dinner. omg how careless i was. but xlb's dad was saviour of the day! he eventually dismantled the doorknob from outside and got it unlocked! THANK GOODNESS. i would feel sosososo guilty if he didn't manage to do that. oh well.

we had a lot of fun at xlb's place (((: poor mitchell cannot taste our WONDERFUL food cuz he had to update his passport. awww. haha.

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im tired. rahhh. maybe it would eventually die off. maybe...

2006-11-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

Chasing cars-snow patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

2006-11-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

hi.

i wonder if you ever have any idea that what you've said hurt me like mad. they're like daggers stabbed right through my heart. why does it seem like whatever i do is wrong in your eyes.

everytime i resolve to improve the relationship, i fail. i wish someone can just tell me what to do. anyone. i'm so tired of all these i just wish to hide under the covers and bawl.

so what am i to do now?

++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Everybody have their fair share of worries. Only today, i feel that i have more worries than anyone else. i have worries deeper than you'd imagine. and i don't know how to go about removing these worries from my heart. it's hard for me to tell others my true feelings; i don't want to trouble them. i just wish for someone whom i can share all these woes with, and together we can shout it across the ocean and run away before they echo back.

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On days like this i really hate myself. for being so vulnerable, so helpless, so...

2006-11-03T20:38:00.000+08:00

"Wonderwall" Ryan Adams

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall