Sunday, January 27, 2008 @ 1:54 PM
HI!
So I'm officially out of job. I quit on my own accord. And they allowed me to leave. I should be screaming and shrilling in ecstasy, as is the usual order of things. But i'm not exactly over the moon, because cxy is still stuck there and my resignation shows my lack of willpower. I'm just not persistent enough to stay on the job. But eventually I convinced myself that I will only stay on for something that I like. Then again, all temp admin jobs are boring. Gotta make sure I stay on my next job for at least three months.
Actually, I can't quite pinpoint the reason for my resignation. Perhaps it's the fear of getting fired. Maybe it's the nature of the job. I'm just not cut out to survive in that environment. It's too competitive as a temporary job. Better to start from something less exciting (no doubt mundane)! Like brainless admin duties or call receptionist. Right now i'm just working for the money. Getting more and more money-minded ahahaha. But i can't help it!!! It's so expensive to travel around when you're officially an adult. And being a classic foodie, I can't and won't compromise on food :D Eating makes me feel less stressed and more happy. Oh and I must thank Jessie for the sumptuous lunch @ Sushi Tei!! It was sooooooo good. Japanese cuisine rocks! I love the chawanmushi and soft-shelled crab maki the most. I ate sashimi for the first time. A bit too slimy for my liking though...
Despite all the unpleasantries and complaints I have of my workplace, I really like the team both cxy and I are posted to! The people in the team are really nice and friendly (: Esp Jessie, my mentor. Really grateful for her guidance in everything. We have some common interests as well. Maybe that's why I became her mentee. heh. hope she gets a better mentee who can help her fill up her orders. haha.
I really love the purple wall! Heh.
Saturday, January 19, 2008 @ 7:17 PM
It's time to think about what i want to study in uni. Hard for me to decide, but one thing i know is i will study something i'm good at. All of a sudden, i realised that studying sth you're not good at will be exhausting and pointless. Exhausting because you have to make much more effort than others to perform as well as them. Pointless because eventually you're just a jack of all trades, master of none. At least that's why i think.
There's a limit to how far one can go. Even if i try really hard i can't possibly force myeself to become a shrewd, business-minded woman. So, i think i will not take up business in smu. I need to find my own niche. Only problem now is that i don't know what it is. 7 more months to start of uni, still have some time i guess..
Recently I discovered how quick-tempered and violent i can get. Sad, but true. lol. I should stop wearing my heart on my sleeve so often. It's gonna land me into trouble someday. Ought to curb my tendency to blurt out spiteful words in the heat of the moment as well. Most people won't get to see this side of me though...only when i'm really agitated and frustrated will i lose my cool.
Talking to son is therapeutic. ahahaha. He makes a lot of sense. About education, career and life in general. Should consult him more. Next time he become some bigshot motivational speaker may need to charge $$$. lol.
Hmmmm..perhaps it's time to turn to books for a peace of mind.
@ 9:55 AM
there are so many things i can't be bothered with...
each day of this new year is so repetitive and meaningless.
just wanna get myself out of this rut.
i'm tired of complaining...
Tuesday, January 08, 2008 @ 12:31 AM
I'm still online at this hour.. I think i'm a potential workaholic. can't believe i brought work home to do. SIGH. nvm, don't think i'll last long.
Anyway, i've promised to post the new year resolutions so here goes:
1. To be extremely organised in work as well as school.
2. Not to procrastinate work till the very last minute.
3. Presevere and never give up pursuing my passions.
4. Not to spend $$$ unnecessarily.
5. Stay healthy and steer away from the doctor's as much as possible. hahaha.
Okay my brain's protesting...so are my eyelids and fingers...and arms...GOODNIGHT!
Tuesday, January 01, 2008 @ 12:32 AM
hey! HAPPY NEW YEAR <3
went cycling with the class at east coast park today! it was a fulfilling outing because we cycled for damn long. apparently 30km, according to mitch. i can feel the toll it has taken on me. aching buttcheeks, sore thighs and weak knees. but it was good exercise la. luckily i'm not starting work tmr! i would take a long time walking down 9 storeys. lol.
anyway, i have decided to name myself "germaine". out of the four names i have short-listed, it is the only one which my friends (who all have different opinions) thought wasn't tacky or slutty or plain boring. lol. it was out of pure coincidence that jaclyn's cousin has the exact same name too! was quite surprised as i had thought that it's quite uncommon. hmmm. it's the best i can get, so i'm gonna stick with it (:
i have several new year resolutions, but i have yet to sort them out properly, so guess i'll post them again soon. maybe tmr. right now, i have one immediate new year wish: not to get bullied at workplace. ahahahaha. i have heard horror stories about worklife and i'm very apprehensive of office politics. but i'll my back covered and not get into anyone's bad books. especially the supervisor.
good luck to me (:
