Monday, January 01, 2007 @ 12:28 AM
my first post in 2007 :D
2006 had truly been an eventful year for me. Those who were always close by my side would know that i didn't have a great start in the beginning of last year. much less; it was rather disastrous. i didn't know i couldn't manage change. or rather, it was too drastic for me to bear. bouts of depression struck me senseless and i became a stranger to myself. tried so hard to pull myself from that abyss. and luckily i finally did so, with the help of my friends ((: many thanks to cheryl and pauline who became my two best friends in class this year. i'm really so thankful that you two were there for me, always, whether sunshine or RAIN. i cannot imagine what would happen to me if not for you two. lovelove <3
not forgetting old time buddies of course xP my squadmates might not be always there when i want to see them, but every gathering feels so warm and fuzzy, because i will once again realise that there will always be a special place for them. and the recent alumni games day just proved that fact. there would not be another grp of friends whom i can bare my soul to. with sqms, i can be my true self.
also, my volleyball teammates. thank you for all the random but funny moments you've brought to my life. felt especially close during the competition season, when we would write encouraging letters to one another and exchange gifts. though i felt kinda of distant to the team initially, as i crave for the closeness my squad share, i realised it wouldn't be the same. now i feel much much closer (: we must work hard for next year! and i mustn't slack ;D
and to the ocip shanghai team! i would say the trip is probably one of the most memorable events in my life. i'm really so glad to have met all of you, all 24 of you. i also learnt alot from the kids in the village school, who taught my lessons of happiness and joy. and all those crazy nights of mass convos are fresh in my mind. such spontaneity and enthusiasm amongst us. which is why i really like this grp of people. we rawk! and let us please not dao each other in school okay!
i hoped and i prayed. but some things are just not meant to be. happiness is not something to be expected. it comes visiting once in a while, and we all ought to savour every moment of it when it does so. the next time it happens, i will not hide like a coward and wish for a hole to swallow me up. i would be brave and fight for what i deem as right and worthy of mine. i would not be afraid to get hurt in the process.
suddenly i feel so old. seventeen. gosh. in about 2 mths i would be eighteen. legal to buy booze and cigarettes. get to enjoy more movie choices with the emergence of m18 shows. and many more regulations broken. but does it really matter? in any case, hope my eighteenth year would be one of wonderful memories (:
wow i sound so..eh..prim and proper. haha. oh well. goodbye 2006, hello 2007!