Tuesday, October 10, 2006 @ 7:10 PM
yoyoyo!
i was literally blind for the entire day in school. hmmm. zhang says my eyes are like knives cuz they keep tearing the contact lenses. lol. siannn. i hafta wear specs tmr cuz my last pair of contact lenses are TORN. looking forward to the new intellectual me. lol.
sometimes, i wonder: what if you don't reap what you sow?
what if you tried so hard to do your best in something but you fail? what if you screwed up something which you've pinned so much hope on? i know some people are worried about getting retained, having to drop subjects, or failing their subjects. i know my unhappiness and disappointment could be rather uncalled for. but we all have different expectations, and i expected myself to do better in chem than ANYTHING ELSE. i'm just speechless man. speechless.
anw, i must apologise to pauline and xlb cuz i pulled a long face throughout the chem thing. SORRY! i wasn't in the mood to talk at all. just kept doodling sad faces on the answer sheet. i couldn't even see what's on the screen so why bother checking through.
but i feel much more at peace with myself now. thanks to squadmates and classmates (:
i just hope that econs would not be too disastrous. i would be really grateful if i can PASS man. or maybe an S is enough. hmmm. i think i was so disheartened by chem such that i became very random while playing bridge. like, super random. i can beat maria alr. haha. pauline and i continued our randomness on 171. we realised pauline has a special affinity with people of a certain SURNAME. lol. and we aim to change the Don Juan carrot into a faithful vegetable. nvm if you don't understand because it's not supposed to be understood. oh wells.
that's all for today. i'll look forward to tmr's mahjong session (: