Tuesday, August 29, 2006 @ 7:29 PM

"How Do I Live"

How do I,
Get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I need....
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Good in my life?
And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?

Monday, August 28, 2006 @ 10:43 PM

After what happened today i think i might become a racist soon. !@@#$%&^^%*&(^*(. wth. i can't believe how stupid i am not to change seats after pauline had alighted. damn stupid!! I should have known that those malay guys are going to make my bus journey home very unbearable.

First was this guy who tried to disturb me by saying hi and looking at me. Obviously i avoided his gaze and retreated into the tiny space of a window seat of mine. For the enitre journey i couldn't sleep at all! I didn't dare to, in case something undesirable happens. And then, his fren exchanged seats with him and sat SO close to me he occupied like 1/3 of my seat?! WTH. I tried to take that space back but hell he didn't get the hint.

Ahhhh. i regretted not being more aggressive and look more fierce, or shift to another seat in the first place. After they alighted at Northpoint i was like WTF?! It was super pissifying lahh. URGH. I swear this is not going to happen to me again. EVER. i will get my ass outta the place if im ever stuck in this situation again.

Oh. and i saw you again! wow. how come our schedules are so synchronised? Lol.

Saturday, August 26, 2006 @ 12:58 AM

Written by Babyface

Every time i close my eyes
Girl, it's been a long, long time comin'
But I, I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up it's gates for me and you

And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too

Girl, I think that you're truly somethin'
And you're, you're every bit of a dream come true
With you baby, it never rains and it's no wonder
The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just a blessing that I have found somebody like you

To think of all the nights
I've cried myself to sleep
You really oughtta know
How much you mean to me
It's only right that you be in my life right here with me
Oh baby, baby

great song (:

@ 12:40 AM

hiiiii.
GUESS WHAT?! my comp died on me yet again!!! im suffering from withdrawal syndrome. bahh. when will the stupid comp be sent for repair?! sigh. but it's not a bad thing afterall cuz i can concentrate on my revision. haha. my mind's in a blank now. donno what to blog about.

oh. anyway, gd thing i realised the misunderstanding in time. i must learn to filter what comes out of my mouth and clarify whatever i say in case anyone got the wrong msg. sigh. i wonder if * believes the false rumour.

hmmmm. GO SHANGHAI!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 @ 12:31 AM

The date says Wednesday 23/8 but i'm blogging w regard to Tuesday 22/8...

How come it seems that i'm perpetually sleepy in school, in spite of how many hours of sleep i had the night before? i was especially drained after econs tut today, my eyelids felt sosososo heavy. But i didn't dare to let myself succumb to sleep, cuz i wouldn't want to incur the wrath of mrs tan. lol. well, what i mean is i don't want to stand up and jump on the spot like eeloong did. Then again, i wonder if she would ask me to do that, considering that she's pretty lenient to girls. (:

Oh and i can't believe what my snr told me. Bio teachers are mostly biased towards the guys! How unfair is that. Humrph.

Hmmm. I've come to this conclusion that i cry the easiest over what matters to me most. I couldn't even bring myself to harbour certain thoughts because i know if i were to start pondering the floodgates are never going to close. And all it took was just one sentence for me to start tearing. I'm glad that i plucked up my courage to do sth which i ought to do long ago. At least it helped to salvage the situation. Yet another realisation i've made this week: Problems will never be solved if you just let them fade away. They come back to haunt you every now and then, in all kinds of manifestations you can hardly believe.

To end off on a happier note, I'm rather lucky today (: Smart choice i've made! Very smart indeed. lol.

Sunday, August 20, 2006 @ 5:47 PM

hey everyone!

ahhh. my computer crashed if you haven't alrdy know. using my brother's laptop now. It's a tablet PC btw! tablet PC is damn cool! can use e pointer pen instead of the mouse :) i haven't figure out how to do e highlighting and drawing yet =P give me some time and i'll master it. ahaha.

yepyep.ytd was 401's gathering at bio tan's classy condo! it's The Levelz at farrer/holland. It was love at first sight for all of us. Bio tan said his place is some perfect setting for serials such as Beverly Hills etc cuz rich, single expats live there and they often invite friends over to their place. Being the usual KPO, (he said so himself), he asked abt our "well-being" and told us interesting incidents he had with the residents at his place. Hmmm.

Seriously i think some of the people living there are exhibitionists. Fancy NOT drawing the curtains in the middle of the night, with the lights on and stuff. Anyone with myopic lvl less than 700 degrees can see what you're up to in that conspicuous room, even if all one can see is the blurry shadow of yours. Oh wells. How scandalous. Tsktsk. lol.

Every girls' gathering is an information-consolidating session, otherwise known as gossip talk. lol. erm, i think i learn a few more rumours spreading around in school. Hmmm. i've come to realise some rumours are untrue, and an innocent/friendly gesture will result in rumours spreading like wildfire. But some are true anyway. haha. well anw i had a great time with ex-401ers (: oh and i went to wanting's house to make cinnamon bread pudding and mayo eggs. So unhealthy but who cares? It's yummmmy! =D We must have more of such gatherings!!!

I cut my hair today! It's the first time i really like a new haircut. First in many years at least. And who says haircuts don't hurt? Mine does! I could hear my hair scream OUCH! when the hairdresser combed my hair. Damn painful lahh. Imagine how many strands had fallen onto the floor..And my hair isn't very full to begin with. But i still like my overall haircut. (:

Tuesday, August 15, 2006 @ 7:44 PM

"Calendar Girl" Stars

If I am lost for a day; try and find me
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me
All of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day
December is the darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right
While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night
Calendar girl whos in love with the world Stay alive
Calendar Girl whos in love with the world Stay alive
I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die
But I can't live forever,I can't always breath
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay Alive
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive
January,February,March,April,May I'm alive
June,July,August,September,October I'm alive
November,December,yah all through the winter, I'm alive
I'm alive

this sudden sinking feeling engulfed me just now; for reasons i could not comprehend.
i guess the fact that i'd rather post an song than an entry proves that i can't express myself well enough in words. somebody else just gotta do that for me.

Sunday, August 13, 2006 @ 9:18 PM

Doing quizzes is one of my favourite multitasks while attempting to complete my work. lol.

You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

You are kind, popular, and generous.
You tend to be successful at anything you try.
A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd.

You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.

You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds.

You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you.

Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

hmmmm. i guess it's pretty true? haha. i don't usually bear grudges, unless that person has done permanent damage to me. lol.

Caffe Vanilla Frappuccino

Smooth and sweet, you fit in to almost any crowd. No one would suspect you of being a coffee tweaker!

What Flavor Frappuccino Are You?

what's a coffee tweaker?? i just had chocolate frap ytd!

You Should Be a Musician

You have a rare combinations of talents: an ear for music, nimble fingers, and the willpower to practice.
You could master almost any instrument you choose to play (if you haven't already!)

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

seriously?! im totally oblivious to musical instruments. terrible impatience with them.

ahhh. gotta retreat back to econs ilp. HELPPP.

@ 8:15 PM

I know it's kinda lag, but:

yayy. hope xlb had a great 17th birthday (:

Fireworks yesterday is <3! Though i couldn't see the main display cuz this irritating tree was blocking my view. I like the waterfall-like display the most! It's not the most spectacular but i like the way it fades into the background slowly.

It's gonna be helluva week ahead. Bio spa, math test and the manymany tutorials which i have yet to complete. Thank goodness chem test is on week 10; i certainly won't have enuff time to prepare if it's next week. I might just get a single digit. Woohoo. Okay i gotta go and do peedoublewwwww. and econs eyelpee.

Thursday, August 10, 2006 @ 9:35 PM

Look at how beautiful this is! Obviously i'm not the one who took the picture =p

XLB and i. I love the background!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006 @ 11:51 PM

hiiii!

just came back from our sqd dinner (: ahhhh. i'm so gekked we didn't manage to see the fireworks at esplanade! I WANT TO SEE THE PRETTY SPARKLING FIREWORKS AND SNAP LOTS OF PICS! i'm so going to watch on saturday. ZLKP we go after the old item collection thingy okay?! yay i have something to look forward to this weekend. jason is going to use his PRO camera to snap pics of fireworks too. lol.

i snapped many pics today! I'm addicted to taking photos, with people or not. Like how i clicked e shutter so many times today at vila'ge. Hmmm. the photo uploading thing is so laggg. I shall post other time (:

<3 next time if i can't get a job maybe i can go be a photographer. i enjoy taking random photos (: Oh and i spent $$$ on MORE accessories today. I really should tie myself to my chair and stop myself from looking at these evils. but at least i'm not as crazy as wei li who does her shopping online which is much worse, cuz she just click click click and buy buy buy. I just like to online window shop. Somehow i can't seem to find what i like on the Net. I still cannot believe that wei li bought so many lip glosses for herself. I shall ask her to sell me some at lower prices. haha. Maybe one day she can set up a garage sale selling all her unwanted stuff. I bet she can earn alot of $$$. lol.

tomorrow i'm going to town again. Hope i won't buy anything for myself. Wish me luck. lol.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006 @ 8:10 PM

Cute pauline! =P

Ever's very demure french braid!

we tried to get the perfect photo after several failed attempts and here it is!!

Monday, August 07, 2006 @ 9:00 PM

Breathe" Michelle Branch

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
and its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
'Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
in saying things we never meant to say

And I Take it just a little bit
I, hold my breath and count to ten
I, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well it's all so overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real

And I Give you just a little time
I, Wonder if you realize
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Breathe

So I whisper in the dark,
Hoping you hear me
Do you hear me?

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
Everything is alright if i just breathe... breathe

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

!!! im speechless now. everything happens for a reason =D

Sunday, August 06, 2006 @ 10:50 AM

Badminton + Squash= Painful arms!

Heh. I know it's quite lag but our class won the other class (some ares class?) in badminton comp! It was rather amazing because i thought i couldn't play badminton for nuts! I haven't played badminton since a few years ago, and to start with, my badminton skills is badddd. ahaha. But thanks to pauline and alicia who practised with me, i made vast improvement! So heartwarming to know that i can play a racket sport. lol. Yeap, let's jiayou for the next round on Monday! Hope Gary and Pauline can play though. WE NEED THEIR HELP TO PROCEED TO THE NEXT ROUND! oh and if i screw up the rules again, the umpire might not be as lenient. I better go and try to understand the service rules. heh. so paiseh, alicia and i just couldn't get the service rules right. Sorry to the umpire who looks quite exasperated, trying to explain the first and second service thingy. ahaha.

oh no, i just read the service rules online and it looked so cheeeeem! ahhh. okay i'm very dumb. nvm, ask denny the indonesia pro for help. haha.

And some of us played squash on friday! Supposed to have vb trng but after ming and shu (mingshu?! haha. noooo) left, zhangwei and i went to run! Need to train our stamina. heh. But our efforts went to waste cuz after that we went to 7 eleven to pig out! Zhangwei, kailin and I. Major pigging-out session! I think we almost blew off the entire of zhi's $10. haha. Then, kailin and zhang decided to run another 2 rounds while i went to play squash! Squash is funnnn! Yet another racket sport that i realised i can play. Though quite badly. But what matters is that we had fun! Yayyy. Now zhangwei and i can play properly le! Unlike our previous attempt, when we couldn't even hit the ball at the wall. haha.

YESTERDAY! Grooming was informative and interesting! I didn't know that i have a ROUND face. :( But the instructor said that it's sorta of a short oval cuz my face quite SMALL. haha. whatever lahh, can't change the shape anyway. I want to learn how to french braid! Everlyn and Cheryl looked veryvery demure with the french braids (:

After the session, ever, pauline, cheryl and i trodded to bugis on a shopping trip! I bought this very pretty brown top i've been wanting for some time. And it's cheap! Cuz it's from this fashion. haha. Pauline also bought a pink-white top there. Hmmmm. All in all, it was a fruitful day (:

i hope my intuition is not wrong.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006 @ 11:08 PM

My brain is so cluttered i can't think straight. I'm in a relatively good mood cuz there's no hw to be done today! Or rather, there's no tutorials to be handed in tmr.

Hmmm. I realised i have morning sickness! Is there such a term? haha. what i mean is that i need some time to warm up in the morning before i get into my normal self. Basically it just means that i'll stone for a while at the cls bench feeling zoned out before i actually start to chatter. Weird isn't it? I can't help but feel a little annoyed when things don't go right in the morning, and i'll tend to put on that dao expression on my face. Like how i missed e hc bus stop this morning cuz i overslept -_- it's so typical of me. lol. can you believe i had actually overslept and woke up only when e bus reached bukit batok when my intended destination was ny??? it took me damn long to realise where e bus was cuz the surroundings looked so unfamiliar.

ahhhh. oh today ross asked us to write love poems during GP! me, cheryl and pauline tried very hard to think of suitable adjectives to describe a guy's lips, hair, skin, eyes, breath, walk etc etc! i mean, most of the love poems are attributed to females, there's hardly any poem about guys! oh but it was quite hilarious anyway. wait lemme find a poem about guys. lol.

grrr i can't find a nice one
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okay found one!

The Bargain, by Sir Philip Sidney.

My true-love hath my heart and I have his,
By just exchange one for the other given;
I hold his dear and mine he cannot miss;
There never was a better bargain driven.
My true-love hath my heart and I have his,

His heart in me keeps him and me in one;
My heart in him his thoughts and senses guides;
He loves my heart for once it was his own,
I cherish his because in me it bides.
My true-love hath my heart and I have his.

And another:

After Parting, by Sara Teasdale.

Oh I have sown my love so wide
That he will find it everywhere;
It will awake him in the night,
It will enfold him in the air.

I set my shadow in his sight
And I have winged it with desire,
That it may be a cloud by day
And in the night a shaft of fire.

alright i take back my word. There ARE love poems for guys! lol.

anyway here are some of the lines we came up with! However corny they may sound they are from e bottom of our hearts okay. lol.

His shy lips turn into a charming smile
Sunshine pales in comparison to his glowing skin
His mysterious eyes remind me of an abyss-unpredictable
His breath reminds me of freshly chewed peppermint
His sun-kissed cheeks light up when he smiles
His voice is like a bass drum that reverbrates

okay that's enuff sweetness for the day. TA-TA!