Tuesday, July 26, 2005 @ 6:00 PM
oh well...i just heard of something bad but there's nothing much we can do about it so i guess we just gotta have faith. i feel so helpless now...it's like when you know what's wrong and you cannot do anything about it because you are no longer in control. yeah, it's that sense of helplessness that's gnawing at me. well, let time speaks for itself.
urgh! i can't stand this term's sabbaticals! it's boring to the core! i felt really rude sleeping right in front of the instructors but i just couldn't stay awake. i felt so sluggish and sloooooowwwwwwwwww cos it's the most ultimate BORING course i've ever attend! oh wells. the only consolation is lunchtime. but it's only 45 mins!!! so darn gekking. for our last sabbatical we have like 1 and a half hours of break?! bleahx.
ahhhhhh. i can't stop worrying.
Sunday, July 24, 2005 @ 1:31 PM
-when the feeling is gone and you can only look back.
oh dang. i'm my contemplative self again. i have absolutely no mood to do anything else except thinking and typing. i'm just thinking, thinking, thinking...
i'm thinking what would make me cry. an emotion-triggering movie would move me to tears. i'm aware that i probably would not be in the same predicament as the characters in the movie, but i'm empathetic all the same. Songs of sentimental value; songs which i can relate to; songs which bring me back to memoryland, when i hear them, tears just can't stop flowing.
friday's POP. it was so different from the previous POPs. what can i say? i had been feeling all sorts since the day started, looking forward to POP yet lamenting on the fact that we would soon leave the unit. we carried out the parade without a prior rehearsal. i told myself, we cannot afford to make any mistakes. this is the real thing, the real parade. our last parade, in fact. the whole parade never felt so short before. even with mr han's speech, it seemed as if the hands on the clock were speeding round the minutes.
so the parade ended. when i saw steff crying, i started to cry as well. gave our squad cheers for the last time. then we went to the LT to watch cadets' performance. Steff's surprise presentation was so touching!!! there were so many stupid pictures which we took in the last 4 years...so paiseh! every picture brought back a special memory to each and every one of us.
soon, the squads performed for us. 39's song item was so cute!!! i like the animals part (: they looked innocently adorable. hehs. 38 sang an edited version of yanleideweidao for us (: so sweet...some of us cried when they were saying the message...i know weiwen cried pretty badily. urgh, i always cry when i see people crying really badily.
went out to the bbq benches to eat! oh man, 37 are great cooks! they probably reckon that we like chocolate cos there were many chocolate-related food. yep, thanks for the scrumptious meal (: yadaa yadaa. we received our POP presents! haha. 2 out of 3 presents were food. :( quite sad cos we hafta eat it up and cannot leave them to rot...hais. but thanks anyway!!! oh man, i'm sun-kissed which means beach babe. diaowwww. haha.
packed up and went to steff's house aka our squad house! yay we got the tv room to ourselves and began to crap...didn't do much. basically gave presents to 38 and stuff. they began to sing "when you believe" when we went out of the room to do something. must admit they can sing better than us! i think the whole unit can sing better than us. lols. i was so amused by 38!!! oh man. can't believe they are that crazy
some fervent crazy persons wanted to hug some squadmates but ended up molesting my squadmate instead. outrage of modesty!!! hugged 38 and most of them didn't exactly return our hugs but nvm (: yeps, and we finally said those three words. behind the pillows somemore. haha, too paiseh. some 38 left for their homes, while others went to stay at sheila's house.
played bridge/daidee for a while. i was waiting to take a shower in steff's bathroom but i was getting too tired and the sofa was too inviting :P slept till the next morning (!!!) and only woke up for a couple of times. wei li and the 4 39 ex-NCOs woke up at dunno when cos the room was too cold and went to steff's room to sleep at 4. 30. O.O i felt quite bad cos i was ba-zhaning the entire sofa for myself. OOPs.
wakey-wakey! initially some squadmates wanted to attend physics lesson at 8 but apparently we woke up at about 5 mins to 8. slacked around in the tv room playing bridge/daidee, watching the day after tomorrow/jay chou concert yadaa yadaa. and soon it was lunch! yumyum. nice chicken pasta soup!
then, me wl cheryl ww and jac went to west mall, while zj sf and ll went home. wl pierced her ears (!!!) and now she's in the earholes society. ahaha. jac added two more earholes under her belt! now she has 7 earholes. OH MAN. looks can be deceiving. haha.
stayed at steff's house for a while and then left for home. oh wellls.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005 @ 9:03 PM
NP room is sparkling clean now! it's me, jac and wei li's masterpiece. squadmates, you all will get a pleasant surprise when you enter NP room tomorrow! i have never felt so accomplished cleaning up a room before. and i love to see the apparent change in NP room! before it was dirty, dusty, messy, cluttered, dangerous (cos we put some stuff on the floor. HAHs). now it's clean, dust-free, tidy, neat and totally safe for walking!
we must clear the things in the cupboards tomorrow! we shall not be guilty of leaving behind rubbish for the next batch to clear.
recently, my moods are fluctuating. vacillating. real bad. i don't know what got over me, but i feel really demoralised and stupid during Math lessons. Perhaps it's just me, but I can't deny that i'm deproving in Math. I mean, I can't even understand sets & venn diagrams! It has gotta be the most common-sense and logical topic of Math. But my dormant brain just doesn't allow me to understand the most simplest concepts. URGH. i want to extricate myself from this helplessness!
i'm in a dilemma. come friday, the love of my life is coming to an end.
Sunday, July 17, 2005 @ 7:33 PM
one of the reasons why our squad is just so lame and klutzy underneath:
firstly, i shall declare dance night a success! it was a pity that it rained, and there were a few hiccups here and there; response wasn't very overwhelming, but i'm glad that we managed to pull it off! many thanks to everyone who made it possible :)and thank you 37 for the rose! ahaha. so cute.
before dance night, our squad created something AGAIN. we had decided to do away with it cos there too much trouble arose and we couldn't be bothered with it. but now, the "two-year itch" is egging us! angchengguoleeleeliulohluitaysoowong! we so rock!
oh. and here's why we are so lame: before dance night, me, cheryl, steff, sf, jac and hq were in the canteen eating food. steff bought M&Ms for us to eat :) steff is always very generous and we always take advantage of her x)
after we had finished our food, me, sf, hq and jac went to put back the bowls and throw away the rubbish. being the good samaritan, jac stepped on the lever to open the lid for us to throw the rubbish. Then, hq held the bowls over the dustbin for me to throw away the ice-cream wrappers inside the bowls. And as i took the rubbish from the bowl i accidentally swept one chopstick into the dustbin!!! oh man. it was all in one sweeping motion so i didn't have time to react. Then, hq started to stare at me (she told me she couldn't believe that i'm so stupid)and did't concentrate. So, she tilted the bowls without notice and somemore chopsticks slided down into the bin!!! left only two. AHHHHHHHHH.
we started laughing our contagious laughter until i sat on the floor...i almost died laughing! i almost cried lorh...laughed too hard. then, jac was so amused that she stopped stepping on the dustbin lever. SO, the lid came crashing down on hq's hand and caused the remaining two chopsticks to drop into the bin as well!!! one girl came to throw away her rubbish but hq told her to wait while she stretched her hand to pick up the chopsticks. so diu-lian. we are so loserish!!! after we finally picked up the chopsticks we ran back to steff and cheryl to narrate the entire incident to them!!! we reiterated the story a lot of times cos we always stopped halfway laughing.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005 @ 11:55 PM
OH MAN I'M HERE TO UPDATE!!! CAN U BELIEVE IT??? AFTER LIKE DUNNO HOW MANY DAYS I HAD DECIDED TO BLOG ON THIS SPECIAL DAY...which happens to be our last act in NPCC life...
(oh no i'm having mental block..dunno what to blog about, so this is kinda random =X)
today we decided to go down for act as a squad together. had our last muster parade and i was 38's squad I/C!!! haha. only three of them fall in, cos the rest went for FOA. grrr. (okay i decided to blog in point form...haha)
-had recre with the pathetically-small squad of threee. they chose the small, cute, and bubbly yellow ball for captain's ball! as usual, us being zaikias won them!
-played the palm game on the floor of the quadrangle. reminded me of the position me and jm sat while eating our lunch during CT. sharon was quite poor thing cos whenever it was her turn to pass the "msg" down the direction, someone would intervene or she would get distracted. we made her do forfeit (!!!)heh heh.
-pepsi cola in the quadrangle. we won again! told u we are invincible. haha.
-we got tired of pepsi cola (and winning. ahaha, just joking) so we sat down at the quadrangle to talk! we talked about random stuff...i think most of the time we were talking among ourselves.
-The grey clouds crept by and rain had to fall on our heads =( so we went into the GO area to talk somemore. Someone picked up a pencil, so we were inspired to play truth or dare! haha, unlucky cheryl kena-ed and chose a dare. GUESS WHAT SHE DID. LALALA. the entire process was recorded in steff's camera...any takers?
-soon it was our last dismissal parade. *poof! it came and went. urgh. i was fighting back the emotions when mr han announced that it was our last act...and all the memories came flooding back, though most were blurred and came in snippets and not complete...
-waited for 38 to finish their FOA stuff before going for song session...we thought that they would take quite some time to come up to NP room but they didn't :)liming had to leave early so 38 went to hug her...so sweet. ahaha.
-we went up to the 4th level space outside the board room. Almost couldn't finish singing chunzhen and dengwohuilai...these are those few songs which can make you cry almost instantly. some of 38 cried even before we sing! oh wells...
-the atmosphere slowly evolved from a sad one to a more lighthearted one...haha, 38 spent quite abit of time narrating the timeline of our NCOship...
-didn't know they actually did those crazy things! like photocopying the RO. that'
s the ultimate man.haha...maybe ma'ams didn't realise that we did those things either. me, cheryl and siewfun kept laughing cos it was too much to bear...
-went down to the canteen and only managed to stay in the circle for a few minutes before the security guard chased us out...he's like the sheperd and we are the sheep. baaaaaaa. haha.
-we still didn't have enough of the talk! so we walked to the nanyang sidegate bus stop and talked somemore...some 38 left in the midst. oh, and they said "we love you, ma'ams!" to us again!!! ahaha. i know they are just waiting for us to say those few, precious words right from our mouths...haha. had fun saying *toot and speaking in coded language which only we understand...
-everybody else left at around 8.30 except for me, cheryl, linette, shee teng and liann...haish.
38, like what we always say, you all have the potential. "Your full potential will be unleashed at critical moments." you can learn to unleash ur potential at will...and it's up to you all to do it.
last act. GONE.