Thursday, June 23, 2005 @ 9:47 PM
NP has struck the deepest chord in me.
true success is not the position you reach but the obstacles you overcome in life.
i just cannot believe all these are coming to an end. okay, i know i'm going to sound like a broken record, so please bear with me while i recall those days...
i just read my NP diary which i started keeping in sec 2. argh, now i regret not having one right from the start cos i can barely recall much of my sec 1 NP life! I just have this faint recollection that we are all super blur and 33 ma'ams just whisked past our shoulders.
everything seems so sepia to me. and it's only 3 years ago. honestly i can barely recall POP '02. the only captured memory i have of POP '02 is that photograph sitting on my desk now. the one we took with our NCOs, in which some of us had evident tearstains and puffy eyes.
and then it was 34 ma'ams' reign. i can tell you my sec 2 life was the most memorable ever. we got to know one another much better and we bonded as a squad! i've done the craziest things in sec 2. Reading through my sec 2 entries, scenes after scenes of yesteryear just ran through my mind..rewinding and playing in sequence...
i'm someone who relish thinking about the past. i can't relinquish the past. they are all too important to me. i cannot ensure i'll remember my NP life as i grow older. so i must keep flipping the pages to keep the memories alive.
As i was saying. sec 2 life. you just cannot imagine how crazy we are. haha. i think our classmates just had to take their hats off to us for being such fervent people. i love sec 2 life!!! so carefree and happy =)
ATC '03. Charlie '03. it was my 1st ATC because i missed ATC '02 due to chickenpox. I love charlie very much :) i still do!!! but of course i love bravo tooooooo. then soon it was POP '03. i probably cried all my year's worth of tears. POP '03. the day 34 ma'ams passed out. the day we sat at dongdong with them for a song singing session. the day we hugged them outside school crying our hearts out yet again.
and the next day we became leading cadets. i think i became more vocal and cheerful...and more gaoxiao. haha. learnt to be strong and not to be overcome by emotions easily. sec 3 was another fleeting year. NYCT times were unforgettable though, the daily trainings before school, during recess and after school. for three whole months we concentrated on nothing except for campcraft. one competition later we were back to square one. hais. how i wish i can dedicate my sec sch life only to NP, dalt and nothing else.
a few months later, it's 35 ma'ams' turn to pass out. all these seemed to happen in the twinkling of the eye. soon it was NCOship for us...bittersweet days. some bad things just had to happened when the unit is in our hands. but what really matters is not the achievement but the attitude we have in our stride.
now we are passing out soon, and i really dunno where to go after we are out.